I'm forced to face
What I've become
My Joy rises
And sets with the Sun

When stuck all alone
Who's left to blame?
When pride is lost
Why feel the shame?

I command both sides
Of this internal war
Neither side surrenders
Only my blood will pour

What doesn't **** you
Makes You stronger
But what if you don't want
to live any longer?

I'm Buried Alive
A Deadman walking
If no one's around
Can they hear my talking?

Breathe new life
Into my being
That I drag around
Lost without meaning

A helpless feeling
I can't seem to shake.
Life is a Death Grip
I can't seem to break.

Just exactly what
Have you become?
Please end now
Pray for oblivion

Order has fallen
Asleep at the wheel
Left with our devices
Slave to free will

Is this the Devil?
Is it God?
An eternal battle
A hollow facade

We've lost ourselves
No answer is found
Falling doesn't feel
Like hitting the ground

So in touch
Yet out of reach
Pearly gates guarded
We await to breach

Your dying breath
Giving me life
Above us all
Under the knife

This is the year
The parties ending
We're not broken but
Sure as Hell bending

Continuing to take
Our borrowed time
Wheels of fate
Stop on a dime

Going in circles
End of the line
It's not yours
**** sure ain't mine

Cough Cough
Tear Tear
Is it the end
or beginning that's near?

Forever more searching
Craving sensation
Pour salt in the wound
That's my salvation

You skinned me alive
Left to decay
Thought you could **** me
And keep me away

Maybe you're right
I'll take my walk
And when he does too
You'll be looking to talk

Will I be there waiting?
Only time will tell
But I now deserve Heaven
Since you put me through Hell

Alone and crushed
I sit in denial
With a new addition
To my wet sock pile

Such optimism
Has caused my demise
Force fed the truth
I finally realize

The feelings I have
Just won't translate
I tossed out my line
You won't take the bait

Maybe I'll see you
Again down the line
I hope I can tell you
I got along fine

That I've moved on
And met someone new
But that someone I met
Just isn't you

Those deep brown eyes
And crooked little smirk
I was off in a daydream
Now awoke with a ****

Tight grip of reality
With a white-knuckle squeeze
How can one simple text
Drop me to my knees?

Run your fingers
Through my hair
I know you're the truth
So I wouldn't dare

Let you slip through
My hands once more
I'll keep you held tight
Like the sweater you wore

The night that
My heart sank in
Knowing that I
Was in love again

A selfish boy
Stuck in my ways
Stood there cemented
Lost in a gaze

It seems as though
The tables have turned
Lit with a spark
The passion it burned

I found the strength
To step towards your way
But he stepped in first
And swept you away

It's coming together
The pieces align
For the first time in years
I'm honestly fine

Weight off my shoulders
Air in my chest
My social demons
Put down to rest

You're so far
Yet ever so near
Make your escape
I'll still be here

With arms wide open
And a Cheshire smile
The tender embrace
We've not felt in a while

My hand in yours
Let's begin this anew
It's worth the climb
To walk downhill with you