These days, all my pieces
are being given away.
Making difficult decisions
obvious
just trying to stay
positive.
Change puts me on edge
anxiety and insecurities spread
engulfing me
I dont want to get out of bed.

An Oak growing without a sound,
loudly crashes, body broken,
roots rotten,
to the ground.

If my life
were the price
to keep you safe,
make you happy,
fulfilled, and at peace,
I wish I could pay it.
A thousand times over I would.
For this life means nothing
without you in it.

I rush my days
for moments with you,
for the feeling of peace,
of a dream,
where I have
all I'll ever need.

Im neglecting myself
for my time with you Love,
and I fear
that this is too good to be true
that you are mine
and I am yours too,
that if I look away
you'll dissapear.
So Im neglecting myself
for my time
with you Love.

Can't speak,
or move my feet,
shift my gaze,
my vision a haze,
with ringing in my ears,
just standing here.
Though I wanted to be near
to you,
now I want to be anywhere
but this venue
Im not like you
I dont wear my darkmess well.

And I should never have shared
my presence here
on HP
for now I find myself
censoring what I write
to avoid
repercussions.
I wish people
would leave me
alone.