Am I expecting too much?
Your feelings that I can't renew
All I ever wanted was
To hear you say "I love you"

Amidst all the chaos you've caused me
I found my peace in your broken promises
Despite all the pain and agony
I remembered the feeling of your gentle kisses

Even when you constantly break my heart
I found the joy in the thought of your presence
In the wake of the confusion you impart
The euphoria once felt in your love's essence

In desperation this is my last resort
I'll love you even harder no matter the cost
Even if my efforts somehow fall short
I'll cherish the love you had but eventually lost

Life is strange
It teaches you
The value of things
You've taken for granted
After they're already gone

But sometimes
When you have learned
Cared for those you love
Treasured every chances
They still somehow slip away

I have kissed boys

Girls

People in between

But lately I have been kissing bottles

Their lips are colder than yours

But slowly I have realized that the pounding headache when I wake is less hurtful than the shattering in my chest

Yet as these toxins rush through my veins

I can't help but miss the tracing of your fingers along my skin

Miss the numbness of the world when you lie with me

But when I wake I remember that a headache is treated with an aspirin

While heartache

Well if you have a cure for Heartache let me know

The words won't come out right
My feelings making my heart tight
I wish I can somehow get through you
If you only had the slightest clue

I cried behind your back
In agony, as you tear up my soul
I loved you even harder
Even when I looked like a fool

I never counted the things I did for you
But ******* I wish you knew
How much it cost me
To love you unconditionally