If you and I have such disdain. Then why the **** do you remain? While ties are cut, and I'm in pain. While lies erupt and lives are changed. Intwined with trust, you hide whats plain. Whats dried to dust, whats died in vain. Once shined now rusts once kind now rage. I find your lust, in time has drained. You fight you cuss, I cry I pray. My eyes seemed shut, while wide awake. Your mind corrupt despite your age. Our time is up, our lines have strayed. Once fine now ******, our shrine in flames. Once thrived now stuck, once pride now shame.

She's content, with the little bit.
Of me that I have to give. Although I remind her she should find herself a better fit.
Just *** I don't lie, and I am kind they think I'm worth a ****.  But if they don't mind to waist their time then I will bite my lip.
While I realize that I'd be fine without a face to kiss.  Selfish knowing time will make them mine but only as a wish.
Recently I've seen a few of these had all stayed sweet and true.
Only to achieve a trust that's weak protecting me from you.
I'm convinced that SHE would suffer grief and never free the shrew.
All attempts to breach the armor leaves it harder we have proved.
           Five years down the road start feeling old then start to drop the shield.  Reaping what I sew long left alone, their  waiting lost appeal.  Or maybe I'll have stopped allowing lots to pay the cost to steal.  Only tender thoughts and that is NOT enough to make it real.
      Plus all that depending on if I'm living or if I've lost the will.  I don't mind it ending while I'm winning at least I topped the hill.

Let it be known. That this calm is my own. Though I don't yet know home. As my grace takes the thrown. In my caves pace and moan. Like a grave placed my stone.
I will wait for the scent of some pharamones. To wake me a bit and change where I roam. To get out and stay active and gain new distractions remaining adaptive and scrape my bones. I'll go hunting not hurtin, not *** but some flirtin, *** I am still certain I'm safe alone.