Let me pass the gates, What could be worse that this human waste, Decaying and fading, Soul dissociated with filth and hatred, Dead before I lay, Insert the blade before I pray, God of nothing, Let me see!!…. I DO NOT BELIEVE
Are like dabbles of paint on a canvas Being strung together to make a painting Really a work of art We each create our own Some are of a bright color Some of a pastel Some are dark
Some make us laugh and smile Some, bring tears to our eyes once again Some teach us Some help
But our memories are the true jewels of our lives They connect us to our past, present and future
Empathetic. Tear stains. Heart afire and broken. Youth. Broke vows. Broke family. Round the drain. Angel saved me. Broke her heart. Angels saved me. Broke their hearts. Devil saved me. Broke her heart. Queen Jayne saved me as stars in our dark night alone together we do it til we create new light. We named her Bailey. She shines so bright!
I’ve loved you in ways that I have never been loved I loved you for reasons that you will never know I’ve loved you for longer than you’ve known and for far longer than you’ve deserved It’s my fault for loving you too much I knew you weren’t capable of accepting what I had to give But you didn’t have to make me feel stupid I can’t count the times you’ve brought tears to my eyes or have made me cry You’ve hurt my feelings so many times and I just want to know why If I could go back in time I’d try to be perfect for you just so you didn't make me feel so stupid I gave you so many chances to change and you just made me look stupid And now I have tears in my eyes and you’ve made me cry I don't know why you had to make me look so stupid
The curtains close And leave me in suffocating darkness. My senses shut down As I scramble for some semblance of safety. Only once the curtains have lifted And the light shines through Am I able to see the extent Of the chaos and destruction that I’ve created It’s like a dissociated nightmare And a lucid front row seat To the brutal and ugly aftermath