I romanticize the idea of not being exist
The idea to put my name on a death list
Without any cut on the wrist
Or living a life that I have to resist

There is something that does not have time to describe by word
When we are both
Only I can ask
Could you know the answer?
Night became a witness
We're both between words
The unspoken one
Expect time to bring courage
To come bring answers
Could we have a chance
Say a promise will not separate forever?

They said be yourself
But why do i want to be myself
When i don't like who myself is

Isn't it better to life a live with a lie and make both of us happy than being myself but just one of us is?

Hello?
Can you hear me?
Can you see me?

If you can hear me
Please close your ears
Before all of my words will make you sick again

If you can see me
Please close your eyes
Before you see me leave again

It's all my fault
So please just leave me
Because you deserve to have a better life
Without me

Yeah, without me.

Every time i look at you
My eyes stop blinking
My heart got stolen
And my mind is lost

You are the reason i can't sleep at night
Because i can't stop thinking about you

But..
On the other side of this poem
I'm sad because of you

It's been a few years since we talk to each other again
And i don't have guts to greet you
Because maybe there is another shadow beside yours
And you forget our memories like a faded Polaroid

So here i am
Writing this stupid poetry
Because that's all i can do