Woke up in anger
Could not fathom why
The earth spun around me,
Why didn’t I die?
A stomach of *****
And a bottle of pills
Entwined with a death wish
Why wasn’t I killed?
I’m still in this bed
My face is the same
The primary difference
Is inside, I’ve changed
My stomach is fried
My headache, fair game
I shake and I cry
The whole world, deranged
From under these covers
My conscience is drowned
My thoughts turn around
Fatality bound
How do I get out?
How do I escape?
I’ll try it again,
For THIS is my sake.
Bottle after bottle
Relinquished the room
Discovered, and empty
Death, my perfume
Day after day
In this house of regrets
My mind and I fester
Alone and a mess
Blood on the walls
And dirt on the floor
Uncensored and raw
My heart on the door
If THIS is demise
And THIS is defeat
I’ve tumbled from lies
The truth came to meet
The parents all wonder
Just what they did wrong
The cause of my slumber;
So silent so long
Yet, everything differs
Although you can’t tell
I’m trying it sober
Unquenchable hell.
It’s nothing but a party in my head today with all these dead, nonexistent people rattling around. . .
Enter at your own risk. ;)
(All poems original Copyright of Eva Denali Will © 2015, 2016)