Tonight I'm gonna sleep,
I'm gonna let my mind rest.
There are secrets he chose to keep,
Despite of me, giving my best.

No matter how much I give,
I know I'll  never be enough.
Maybe because I'm not the one he needs,
So he's still craving for other's  love.

I'd like to think this is a game
I have to fight hard to win,
But feeling this much of pain
I think I'll just let her have him.

This time I'm now letting go
Of all the feelings I've invested.
It's time for me to let myself grow
And learn that no one can be trusted.

So now I'm gonna sleep
Probably a little much longer.
He was once my sweet dreams,
But now he's my worst nightmare.

Those silly songs;
so sad but true
With lost feelings
of me and you

I played it on
with the tape's side A
Felt like blossoms of dawn
and flowers of May

I flipped the tape
Found side B's empty
The same thing I get
Every time you look at me

"You'll get over this."
You once confided
That's what our love is;
Too one-sided

There are things left unsaid
And stories left untold.
There are promises you never kept
So there’s nothing for me to hold.

There are things left unsaid
And stories left untold.
There were tears that I've shed
When you left my heart broke.

There are things left unsaid
And stories left untold.
In your hands my heart melted
Only to give it back to me, cold.

My feelings left unsaid
My love for you was never told.
Let's stay together till the end
--Side by side until we're old.

Roses

Petals
and thorns
along its stem.
One day it will die
And be gone in the air.

Love

Hearts
Were torn
Before reaching the end.
They've already died
Even though they weren't dead.

When she asked you to go away
That's when she needed you to stay,
But she's not going to tell you that
Because she know it won't make any change.

When she didn't text you that morning
It's because she spent the whole night crying.
Her pillow was a pond filled with pain
And all she ever called out was your name.

When she didn't kiss you goodnight,
She badly wanted you to ask her if she's alright,
But then you just turned your back and left...
There she was again, alone while she wept.

When she answered "I'm fine" before you even asked,
She thought you'd notice the dark circles around her eyes
But when you flashed your confused gorgeous smile,
She has forgotten that she's already broken inside.

And when you start to realize the real meaning of everything she did,
It's too late now because there's a man she's already with.
He hugged and kissed her and made her laugh,
and do the things you never did.

He noticed the tears in her eyes
Whenever she cried for you during those nights.
He chose to stay after you walked away,
Because he knows she needed him that day.

But don't worry 'cause she's a stupid girl
She'll never know he's in love with her.
And she'll always come running after you
Even though she knows she deserves someone better than you.

I’m tired of being tired
And instead of resting,
I decided to hide.

I’m tired of explaining
That the world isn’t just you and me,
That the earth keeps on spinning
And I’m pinned on a place I never wished to be.

I’m tired of crying,
Sleepless nights, and swollen eyes.
The eyes that turned red in the morning
Because the whole night I’ve been trying to live.

I’m tired of smiling,
When every piece inside me is breaking.
When all I wanted to do is to explode,
Yet all I do is just nod.

I’m tired of saying “I’m fine”
When in fact I am not
But you still believe me
Because you’re too blinded to see.

I’m tired of typing words—
Words you’re not worth to see;
Words you never heard from me,
Words that I meant to keep.

I’m tired of staying
And every night I thought of leaving
But then I imagined you alone
And then I walk back to my bed wishing I’d drowned.

I’m tired of pretending—
Saying I never loved you
When the truth is I really do.
And it hurts so much too

Because no matter what I say,
No matter what I do
All you can see
Are the things I never meant to do.

Above everything else…


I’m tired of being tired
And I bet you have no idea
How many times
I already died.

I’ve locked myself
In my room,
Planked on my bed,
Reading my books.

Days after,
I went out.
People looked at me
like I have worms on my mouth.

I didn’t mind them
and continued to walk
And as I do,
I hear them talk.

They call me names
As I ran with shame.
I hid from the world
And in the dark I crawled.

I hate people
--I always do,
But everything changed
When I met you.

You’re the light
In this world full of fright.
You’re my escape
In this world full of hate.

Then I realized
You’re just a dream.
You’re the main character
In the book I keep.

I guess I’ll hate
People forever
Until we meet again
My perfect stranger.