As I lay awake at 5:33 I can't help but to think about me.
All of the things that have changed me.
All of the things that made me.
I now  live alone , a life I've never know . Embracing change,  everything's strange....
When your a stranger in your own life.
Rewriting my story, choosing a new title.  I refuse to be one who sits idle.
I left everything I knew to start a New. It's funny how important it feels to few.
One of the hardest descions has proven to be the best.
Sad part is I'm working so hard I get no rest.
I know it's part of life's test.
The universe treats me the best.
Forever blessed.

Yesterday the birds seemed rather peculiar.
The morning was cool, damp, rainey.
A chill went through the air.
Holiday season is here.
People are frantic.
Shopping.
Stressed.
Malls packed.
Mom losing her toddler.
Heart stops, cops called.
ALL due to her lack of concern and sick addiction of society pulling her in to the latest trend, best deal, better product.  
Is it really better?
Or are you being brainwashed?  
Do you need it?
You do zero research. You just believe the retailer.
Ignore your child.
Are you really better?
Then the next person you judge?
They are judging you.
Be careful.
Mom's in tears.
People everywhere.
Good people in the world.
Child found.
Heartbeats again.
Life rethought.
Retail therapy over.
Therapy considered.
Life goes on.
Birds fly by.

Every full moon I sit outside and worship you.
Something about being under your beautiful glow fills my heart and satisfies my soul.
Magic happens, I can feel it in the universe.
A very powerful time, a time for change, a time for power, a time for strength, a time for YOU to think a new.
I thought a new. I thought of you....
And i had no idea who you were.
Until you appeared here in front of me and stole my heart.
For the power of the Sun and the moon is so strong there was nothing I can do but let you take it.
I asked for it every morning and night. Your so intense.
Manifestations at its finest, who are you?
My moonchild, love meant to happen. No control. The moon was the only one listening all these years , i cant blame him for saving me.

Your all i think about.
I question If I really know you.
I want to believe I do.
Life is changing. Rearranging.
I broke my lease. $1800. Silly.
But I'm in love.

Didn't think it could happen so soon. I spent 13 years with the equivalence of a baboon.  
He's a thing of the past,I feel like such an ***.
Looking back it should have happened long before.
He deserves a stupid *****.

Now I've met a man.
...the way he holds my hand.
I'm speechless, it's the little things  he brings.
I hate to be away, something about him....total swoon.

I'm going in with eyes wide open, trying to honor his request.
I would love for this to be my final quest.
Starting a union together with those two words...
I do want to say.

Unlike my past everything is happening so fast.

Embracing change, the time is now. I have no fear when you are near. A feeling of security , 13 years never provided me with.

Your different.  I'm diving in with trust.
Don't show me different. I manifested you. You know this.

What's crazy to others is unbelievably real to me. Take care of me,keep me smiling.  You are my moon , I worshiped before you appeared.