I'm learning

learning to be free
learning to love myself
learning to live

I'm living

living my life
living without you
living with love

I'm loving

loving my life
loving myself
loving you

How can I live here?
One day I will escape
Maybe today or tomorrow
Every experience matters

I was never able to accept
The position was was in
At eighteen I am stupid
I left myself vulnerable.

In under 4 months
You were gone
The hardest decision I made
A choice, a life

The trust of my friends
broken
The secret out.
I was stupid.

I took a pill,
it was over,
But my pain
My regret

You will always be
on my mind
in my heart
on my conscience

You are a reminder
of my power
my choices
my mistakes.

I have to accept
You were me
I was you
A life never lived.

Find me a window,
Find me a door,
Find me a corner
To hide in

I need to escape
This unfortunate life
My house, a building
Not a home

My sister's are my rock
Parents.
Well what can I say?
ENEMIES

What is a family,
When there's no love?
It's emotional
It's my stability,

Well maybe not.

When can I escape?
Without any money
I can only hide
Hidings what I'm good at.