My Love, I don't know what you want
I am trying to stay with you
But you are a horror, a haunt.
I am trying to believe in this we
While you tell her
What you said you would only tell me.
I just want you and thats all
But you want her too
I shouldn't have to stand this tall.
Right now, my dear, this is a major cost
Because I want to love you
But honestly I am lost.

I could have contact my boyfriend's parents through his uncle and risk finding out that either 1. He isn't who he says he is or 2. He can never talk to me again

Or I could wait it out, uncertain of if he'll ever come back to me but with hope

I don't know

'Cause after all, according to LoveCraft, I'm Beryl Dov.

And we all know that Dov is the f!cking Emperor of HP

Before you fall in love with a suicidal girl
Don't.
Suicide can not be romanticized and though she might idolize you
Remember that you may not be enough.
Remember that this world may never be enough.
Demons don't just go away, sometimes they just hide in the shadows.
And even at the highest noon they are there. Just smaller. The sun will go down.
She will always have shadows.
Remember that no matter what you do
You are irrelevant in her master plan.
She will plan out her letters in your arms.
When she is silent hold her. Make her know that she is loved, it may not be enough but those few moments in your arms might make her think twice.
But don't assume for one second you will be her savior.
When you see cuts on her wrists do not beg her to stop.
She won't.
She will cut deeper for letting you see her weak.
She will try to be strong.
She will put on a show for you. She will make you forget she was ever depressed.
Remember that sunsets can make you forget that night is bound to follow.
Know that night will follow.
When you get her final love letter to you
Ignore the fact that it is stained in blood.
Do not pour your precious time.into wondering if she suffered.
She will write her apologies in her best handwriting.
Do not read it.
Get in your car and drive.
Drive to the nearest bar and read the letter through hazy bloodshot eyes.
Do not blame yourself.
Do not look for moments you could have done something different.
It'll drive you crazy.
Before you fall in love with a suicidal girl.
Don't.