torture at night
sickness during day
thoughts of leaving
keep going through my head
my head keeps pounding
feeling nothing but shame
never thinking
can life ever cange
a life of misery
with no place to go
i hide my feelings
to hide my shame
never talking
drives me insane
my thoughts won't leave me
i keep them retained
should i pick up and use
or should i run and hide
i go in circles
to pace the floor
these everasting feelings
i need to pour
these feelings of SHAME
i need no more

Remember how I used to love you?
Did everything you wanted me to,
Killed myself inside for the likes of you?
Well..  I'm f-cking through
Through thinking about you
Dreaming about you
Crying tears with your face in the reflection
Finding your stuff when I turn any direction
Hoping it was all a dream
Not as bad as it seemed


But the truth is...
You taught me more than I ever cared to know about you and now that I'm actually through, I've realised you made me stronger and more sure than ever before.

Thank You for all the things you didn't do
I'm sure you'll Never Forget
*The Girl Who Loved You

Your explanations -
Truthfully dishonest.

Your rationality -
Crazily sane.

My character -
Recklessly patient.

My feelings -
Despairingly hopeful.

Our love -
Simply complicated.

mind of Mind,
so subtle
as to be
illusory.

heart of Heart,
so immersed
as to be
hidden.

Heart-Mind      Human,
the Mesocosm,
Here.

**** and ****
visceral,
blood and love-making,
eating,
sleeping,
breathing...

Here we are.

Observing
the landscape
the artist
including
her-
self.