so many words but still not enough
to tell you that
how much it huts to be like this
how much it hurts to let  everything go
how much it hurts to forgive u
u just make me a mute
and the words die at the back of my throat
those form a lump inside
that I try hard to digest to breath again

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

when i think of life
i think of you
all the things u do
all times when you call me pretty
the look u give me
when u can't hide Ur love
all the times u said u were there
all the times u asked me to love you
all those smiles u hide
all the blushes I see
the happiness on your face
all the nights u stay awake for me
all the dreams you have of me
all these remind me of life

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

should I finally agree the fact that I lost you!!
even though u were never mine from the start

how to heal the broken parts of the soul
that keep breaking on daily basis
how is that "nothing is so broken that can't be fixed"
while all I feel is feel broken with every ounce of air i breath..

All the things that were left unsaid.
what does they ****?
the words of free will
just like the tears that
never cross the bridges of the eyes
all the memories of drowning
and never learning never to swim