I would learn every word to every Coldplay song ever written if it meant I could have just one day with you

I've finally understood the quote "some people feel the rain, others just get wet" I mean I assume I've always known, but now it just seems so clear. While some people feel nothing others feel too much. I am afraid that I feel too much as well as love too much. So much love, so may feelings, yet no one to share it with. Soon I hope.

I think I'm always gonna be that girl. The girl who no one knows but knows everyone's name. The girl that no matter how hard she tries will always be let down. Even by people who claim to be her friend. I think I'm meant to be alone. I've never been the type to have friends. They always leave for some reason. Maybe it's good though because who wants to be around a girl that hurts this much for no reason at all. A girl who thinks everybody that looks her way is in love with her. A girl who will never have a boy love her. A girl who tries so hard to pretend like she doesn't need to a boy and tries so hard to be okay with being alone. The girl who keeps her feelings inside so often that one day they just burst from the seams of her skin and she can't control the Avalanche of emotions. A girl who wants a tragic love not some stupid fairy tale. I want a love that hurts my soul when it's over. I want to feel the pain of love. Because right now all I'm feeling is hurt over no one. Hurt over boys who don't even think about me ever. Boys that have other girls. There will always be other girls.

At least I'll always be the first person he met at school. At least I mean something to him.

Apparently getting drunk won't help me talk to you either

My friend told me I was eclectic today. I didn't know what that meant so I asked. She told me it meant unique, quirky, different. I said thanks, I like it that way. Why try and be like everyone else when I can be my weird self.