All those dark nights, alone in my room.
Wishing for death to come and consume.
So many options, none of them real.
I'm afraid these ideas just don't appeal.
Touch every scar, remember the days.
Seems so long ago, covered by haze.
Ignore what they tell you, ignore all the stares.
Fix your own problems, cause nobody cares.

I built up my wall, it's not coming down.
It's the place that keeps me safe and sound.
And when it's provoked, it only gets stronger.
It's not going to give in; it's been with me longer.
The only loyalty that will never leave.
This wall protects me; something i need.
No one comes in, my gates are locked.
It doesn't matter who you are; don't be shocked.
The guards to the wall are built up with lies.
So, no they can't trust, what a surprise.
And each brick, harder than stone.
Made by pain, betrayal, and more that's unknown.
Don't even try to knock down this fort.
Because what happens if you do, will be a drastic last resort.

A soft thud stirs in your head, but turns to screams and wails instead.
Every day and every night each side puts up a fight.
One says yes, the other says no.
Which side is right to follow?
"Cut, bruise and eventually die."
"But you have so much to live for; why?"
Part of me knows which path is right.
The other stays wondering through the night.
As i think about my life, i can't help but catch a glimpse of the knife.
Then i think, what if i did?
I'm not important, i'm just a kid.
Each day, every minute, i wonder which side will eventually win it.

I once met a girl so innocent and sweet
Until she took a stroll down evil street
Where all that's seen is the negative side
Find yourself drained; lost on this ride
Taunted by devils, demons, ghouls
Looking for solace, stability, rules
Wandering hopelessly along this path
Waiting anxiously for the aftermath

What you see on the outside, the shy, nerdy little girl; is only the surface; underneath is a whole different world.
Just listen really well and you can surely tell the silent screams can now be heard; the volume begins to swell.
You realize she's been ignored; now as her mind is being explored; everyone can see her path is one she simply can't afford.
If she kept going the way she had taken.
It would be impossible for her to awaken.
Once her body hit the cold, hard floor, she would be greeted by heaven's open door.

When a girl dreams of a boy

she doesn't start to blush,
there is no distinct sparkle in her eye
but her heart flutters and skips a beat
like a dainty butterfly

her lips softly quiver
for she knows not what to say
her legs lightly bounce about
control has gone astray

his charm captivates her
his warm eyes melt her heart
his voice, mesmerizing
tears her fears apart

her mind can only wonder,
is there anything more
does a secret lurk, behind some hidden door

her doubts are cast aside
her words she can't quite form
regained her peace of mind
but her love was always worn

as you know, a mere dream cannot really
describe this sensation
for she has loved him, since his very creation

Few things are taken for granted as I
Precious and surprisingly hard to come by
Each breath you take, each sunrise so bright
This is a privilege, by no means a right
Just when you've found happiness, all seems complete
I can and will leave you to rot with defeat
I need no reason, for I can just say
And someone you love will be taken away
So do not forget me and all that I do
For one day I promise, all will forget you

Why can't i just wake up and forget about the past?
Why is it that awful memories are always built to last?
Why did i have to break the promises i made?
Never will i cut.
Never will i curse.
But i made those mistakes and i paid.
Why is it that the ones you love always leave?
Why is it the ones you trust have a trick up their sleeve?
Why was i born?
When will i die?
Who in hell am i?
Why is a question so easy to ask.
The answer however, is a separate task.

Who knew that something as small as a word, could cause so many problems.
Haven't you heard?
It seems like nothing, no one was hurt.
Intact on the outside, but inside was worse.

Words can cause pain and long, sleepless nights.
Words can cause broken hearts, damaging fights.
Words are more powerful than they may seem.
Once something is said there's no way to redeem.

Be careful of words, they pierce like a knife.
You just might impact somebody's life.

Peeling skin and broken dreams
Splitting, cracking at the seams
Frustration, sorrow, passion, love
Cooing softly as a mourning dove.
Wails and screams cloaked in red
Holding hearts already bled.
Emotions one cannot express
Thrown together in a mess.
Desperation, overwhelmed
Escaping to a whole new realm.
Enveloped in a sense of relief
Making burdens much more brief.

Said it would be over soon
And once I stepped out of the room
My world came down
Said that it would be alright
We'd put up a hella fight
But I'd drown

You promised you would be here
But I'm fed up with these tears
I miss you now
You'd hold me in my worst fears
Stay with me for these years
I don't know how

Why'd this have to happen
To a perfect person
What's so wrong
I lost a big part of me
And now I'm getting dizzy
Our last song

Just promise that you'll be here
For every other great year
Don't give up
Be the man you should be
The friend I know you could be
Feel my love

For someone once lost and all alone.
Beaten and broken, heart hardened as stone.

A surprising escape opened secret doors.
Wandering across untrodden floors.

A whole new realm of brilliant minds.
Letting go, leaving the past behind.

Connecting with souls like never before.
Plenty of new works to explore.

Unlocking passion, unknown to man.
Stumbled upon, was not the plan.

Locked in a world, where raw talents flow.
Like ink on paper, where will it go?

Where people accept what others will say.
Trying to take their pain away.

A place that has saved me much sorrow and fear.
And boosted my confidence when kind words were near.