growing up in
nothing but pain
in someone's life
all they know
is pain not
love their love
is the pain
they endured in
their life time
people don't know
how to love
other's without hurting
their loved ones
the pain of
growing up in
traumatic abusive life
is so hard to
not hurt the
ones who don't
hurt you

my life of pain
is real but all
I do is ignore
it my pain
is nothing to
other people's pain
my pain is
nothing like others
the pain is
real but why
would I care
my life of
pain is always
with me it
may have killed
me inside but
I am alive
but what am
I to the biological
parents that abandoned
me I AM
Worthless to them
they never loved me
why would they
want me a scarred
girl who isn't
a BOY

Life is unfair, brutality is around the air
I always wonder how can God let this happen around me, life is just so unfair
God just lets this happen to others around me and the world. Why am I so sad, people will ask, don’t they see or even feel sympathetic  towards the people who have to endure a lot of brutality

Don't you see
The pain in
Thy eyes of
The creature the
Eyes are dull
No one treated
It right the
Eyes of a
Abused one the
Broken one of
The life it
Used to have
You look back
There standing there
Is a dog
The dog of
Abandonment abusement loveless
Dog is so
Broken don't you
See it in
It's eyes on
It's body

You see a
Girl with dull
Eyes people judge
Bullied her no
One thought she
Was good she
Herself believes she
Is worthless to
Be loved all
The pain came
Towards her the
Skin on her
Is scarred but
She hides the
Scars no one
Notices her pain
They don't see
Her they see
A toy of
Their own jokes
This girl tries
To hide away

You see my
Scars my hate
Towards myself you
Stare at me
I stare back
My eyes are
Dull but with
Pain and loneliness
You just looked
I hide the
Scars of my
Past you wonder
Why I have
Them but I
Just cover them
Up with my
Sleeve all you
See is my
Fake smile that
Doesn't do much
But to hide
My past the
Past of self injury
You don't know
How much I
Felt so worthless
So lonely so
Broken that I
Hide away into
The heart of
Mine

Why do you
Hurt me why
Do you manipulate
Me why don't
You love me
I gave you
My love but
What you do
Is make me
Scared of you
I don't like
You I am
Tired of you
Hurting me using
Me why don't
You love me
You used me
You used important
Things to get
My attention but
You don't just
Tell me you
Want my attention
I hate that
You used me
You scared me
You scarred me
No one can
Probably heal that
Pain you gave
Me putting up
Walls but what
Will I do
If someone tries
To hurt me
It's unknown