Lostling

Lostling 6h

Some days you’re tired
And the silence no longer welcomes you
But burrows into your soul, sealing it in a straight jacket
Sometimes the world is too bright
And the darkness no longer brings comfort.
Yet darkness is the only way you can bear
To live in your skin.
Some nights music sounds like mourning
And quiet sobs, screams.
And it hurts.
It hurts so much

Down Day
I just want peace but I can’t have it

#tired #hurts #alone #dark #quiet #screaming

Lostling 1d

Love; rationed

She’s pretty—
Sharp chin, long lashes
Smooth skin and bright eyes,
Shining with a darkness
Only the moon could have.

And I yearn to hold her,
To be held by her, and
Tell her how much I love her

Yet she pushes back,
Handing out her love like rations
When I am but a starving child

I will always be too much for her
And she will never be enough

Maybe our love languages just don't match or something

#rationed #love

Lostling 4d

Stop it

Roses are red
And so is my blood
You made cuts romantic
But it’s not called love

I hate when it’s romanticized, like what do you mean it’s an “aesthetic”???

#sh

Lostling 6d

Smile

Too bright, tears fell unbidden
Like leaves do in the winter
When the wind, disappointed, sighs

Too loud. I wished for silence,
For companionship, or nothing at all.
Yet this is no fairy tale

You told me
“Let me see your beautiful smile.
For me, please?”

Thus I hid my face
So you didn't have to see me cry
And so I didn't have to listen

A memory from last year
Glad I got that out =)

#smile #cry

Lostling Jul 14

Only Plan B

When you kissed me
I tasted him on your lips
You didnt say it
But I knew:
I was always just backup

Because I feel like I’m always the second choice

#replacement #backup #second #hurt #unimportant #inadequate

Lostling Jul 12

I’m Fine

Sometimes I wonder
If it’s all just in my head
And I should just stop

I have a good life
So why the hell do I still feel so broken??

#frustration

Lostling Jul 10

Without you

If I was a melody
Then you would be the harmony
Cause you would be the part of me I lack

And if I was the moon above
Then you would be the sun I love
Yeah you would be the light that I reflect

And I don’t know what I would do without you
All I know is this

The stars could die a million miles away
The earth could shake and cities blaze
Still I would love you—fire, snow or rain
I’d hold you, keep you safe from all the pain

A song draft I finished but abandoned

#song #lyrics #complete #friends #family