Its getting harder to laugh a while

Its getting harder to happily smile

Its getting harder to put on a mask

Its getting harder to just walk past



Its getting harder to go socialise

Its getting harder to look into their eyes

Its getting harder to see the right choices

Its getting harder to ignore the voices


Its getting harder to keep secrets up my sleeve

Its getting harder to find reason to live

Its getting harder to not submerge

Its getting harder to suppress the urge



Its getting harder to say “I’m alright”

It’s getting harder to see the light

Its getting harder to run after

Its getting so.

                          much.

                                             darker.

Theres nothing wrong with me
I have a normal and happy family
But for some strange, strange reason
My head hurts no matter the season
My mouth is pained from smiling
The heaping weight keeps piling
How long will I have to tell my lies
I can see the distaste in their eyes
My heart is underwater slowly sinking
My mind is full of wishful thinking
All my tears and pain unseen
Hear the words I really mean
“Others have it worse” they’d say
But its getting harder every day

Plunging down into freezing waters
Every single time without supporters
I can hear the things that aren’t there
I just want to disappear somewhere
Falling in my dreams, landing in a heap
See, all this really plagues my sleep
But its alright, I’ll just say ‘I’m fine’
Looking up and down to pass time
Watching birds fly on their wings
Feeling a pull on my heart strings
A lantern’s glow and a candle lit
They’re growing dimmer bit by bit
Try and try and try as I might
But I still can’t reach the light

Can you see this night sky of ours
Stare at it spellbound
I want to catch those falling stars
Chase that fading sound
I’ll lose sight of those broken shards

I imagined falling from that height
Something I wouldn’t mind
I started to wonder if that was alright
Then it was all I could think
Suddenly I couldn’t see the the light

My eyes are starting to see in grey
I’m someone fate hates
Sorry, I don’t think I’m doing okay today
There are these invisible weights
And a a constant desire to run away

It’ll all come crashing down
The heap of regret
A lonely queen with out her crown
Please let me forget
If this keeps going, I’m going to drown

This is something I can’t persevere
The reasons why are unclear
I just want it to end right here
Everything can disappear
Along with all I hold dear

Can you see this night sky of ours
If I ask, will it respond?
I want to fall with the falling stars
I can reach the beyond
I’m going to die like falling stars