I knew she was sad --
Not because there were
tears in her eyes
But because there were
Grey clouds in them
Swirling chaos in her mind
Thorns around her throat
Poison in her heart
And a tired smile
On her bleeding lips
And the love she knew
Never thought that
She's really that sad

I can't do this anymore
It kills me to do this
But I have to go
I am broken beyond repair
But it's not like you care

I wasted months and years trying to do my best
But it's never enough


I'm sorry but I have to
This is the end
I really did love you
But I can't do this on my own anymore
You proved to me I didn't matter
I am unimportant
So this is goodbye
This is my end
My eyes will close and my mouth will shut
I will never see the sunrise or
feel the coldness of the wind on face

This is it.
This is my end

Where will I go
I just don't know
I'm in a pretty dark place
In my own mental space
It's strange to me
Most definitely
How can I explain
This invisible pain
Self doubt is a crippling
Burden that has rippling
Effects on the mind
I've tried to leave it behind
And refocus on the daily grind
I don't have a job
I keep getting cracked like a ****
I feel like a decadent slob
But I must go on
A brighter day will come it won't be long.
So where will I go
I just don't know
I might end up anywhere,
Maybe Mexico
But when I find
My peace of mind
I'll keep it for the end of time.

Tick tick tick
That's my fuse going
Tick tick tick
That's my temper getting ready to explode
Tick tick tick
That's my patience disappearing
You should really watch your step
You've pushed me to far now
Tick..
Tick..
Tick...
BOOM.
Oh look what you have done
Now you better run you dumb *****.