When you love someone...

So  much it hurts..

You think to let go..

But, you can't.

I'll leap into darkness.
Lost myself today.
You don't know me anymore.
Don't tell me it'll be okay, because you aren't the one going insane.

You and him..
You don't quite known how you fit together...
I'm kind of under the weather..
There will be time for us to be friends..
Unless it's the end of us..
Unless you say you care
And you don't..

I'm scared I'll lose you.
Because, he doesn't like me
Like you do..

I'm happy for you..
I am..

Just there's a space between love and lust.

Finding out where you fit..

In my life..

There's always a space for you here..

Somewhere...

You'll always be here.

Even if you don't care.

I'm seriously debating..
About ending my life.
One fiction story later.
I'm torn on what to do.
Will I lose?

*I'm sure

The stars are ours tonight.
There's not a worry left in my mind.
I'm going crazy.
Can't wait to be with you.
Underneath the stars and moon.

It's like we all have something better to do.

Especially you..

You don't wanna talk.

When we do..

It's all about saying okay.

Or, I can't talk now.

God, you break my heart.

I'm not sure how.

But, you just do.

You make my blood boil

We're like water and oil.

I honestly wish I would have tried harder..

**To save you from that hipster disaster

Broken
Shattered
I *can't pick up the *pieces.
I can't give you a reason.
I won't walk away until you know..
There's nobody who gets me like you do.
My mind is running empty.
Through the search for someone else.
I can't be the only one who's so disconnected..
It was so different in my head.
Drink up.. last call before the sunrise sets the last scene.
Of empty bottles, heavy hearts.
The memories of broken dreams.
But, wait.. now that I've found you..
Situations from dark now change to gray.
It's perpetually blinding me of my sanity.
I've lost my whole life and a dear friend..

Its 1:47 A.M.

I'm writing a poem..

Because I'm...
                      
       Sad
   Lonely
      Lonely
Confused

And, there's nothing I can do.

I'm nothing but happy..
When I can kiss you..
Underneath the mist..
When you part those sultry lips..
I'm nothing but putty in your hands.
I love you..
You don't even know..
Be with me forever please?
I need you with me..

I ask for your opinion.
I tell your boyfriend to put rainbows in his hair.
I proceed to tell you that I'm not cutting.
But, indeed, I am.

I want you to know..
I still care.

But, as I think back of how many times you've ignored me..
I'm kind of hurting.

But that's just fine.

But, I lied.

I did cut..

And it will never stop.

Clothes shed..

Tears dried..

You asked,"Are you sure?"

I replied, "You are my first."

I thought I mattered to someone. Somewhere.
Thought I was alright.
But I'm not.
I'm searching for a soul.
Someone who cares.
One that will help me win this battle against myself.
I think today is the day.
Where I say I've had enough of this pain.
Take the pills to feel again.
Enough of slant rhymes..
Enough of Luna.
Enough of everything I had made.    
Are you gonna care?
I'm just gonna try to take my life.
Try to find light elsewhere.
Dear god, take the air from my lungs.
Because, honestly I've had enough.

Suicide.
My heart is broken and filled with pain.
I can't bare to live anymore.
I have suffered enough.
You broke my heart once and I let it slide.
But when you broke it for a second you crossed the line.
I hate you, I hate you more than life itself.
Why did I let love get the best of me and not see what was really going on?
You never liked me.
You never wanted me.
So why did you flirt.
You let me believe something could have happened.
Like you falling in love with me.
I loved you, I still love you.
But I can't bare to show it anymore.
As far as I am concerned you don't even exist to me.
In my heart your gone.
I cry myself to sleep thinking about you.
If only you knew how much I loved you.
If only you could see.
My life ended that day when I realized I can't have you and when I saw things I never wanted to see.
It hurt me, it hurt me deep inside my heart is broken in two.
I don't think I could love again the way that I loved you.
There is no more love in me now I am filled with hate.
Hate for you but more for myself I dont want to live anymore suicide is the only answer.
Why couldn't you tell me from the beginning that it was only a joke?
Why didn't you tell me not to take it seriously?
What was I to do?
Keep dreaming that one day I could have you.
Or maybe I should have realized that once I meet you I couldn't have you.
I don't want to live.
Suicide is the only answer.

I've pushed everyone away.
Had enough today.
Can't take pain.

The sun sets.

These heavy hearts have

Left our chest.

I  thought...

Every single word...

      Sliced
               Me
                    Open

Now I'm the one who's broken.

Leave me alone.
I don't need your bipolar crap

      It's all just a new slice. That you created.

Don't take your words. Don't take them back.

Because it's too late for all of that.

You said how you really felt.
And you meant it.

I never said how I truly felt..

I trusted you so much.

Waited around for the words I care..

You lied about all of the **** you said.

Why couldn't you have said I don't want to be friends?

It'd hurt way less than this.

This is probably goodbye for the last time..

Just let me die.

You'll never know..
The emotions I choose not to show.

I can't tell you enough.

I just want to die

****** me tonight

Today I am in search of something.
Something I'll never find.

Today I decided I'll try to change..
Forget about you in exchange for words on this paper.

I've decided to live my life.
To just fly.

Soar until I reach the sky.

Today I have decided my goal in life.
And the journey starts here.

I know..

I can't like you.

And you don't like me.

But, do you know why I do?

Because...

The way your green hair
twinkles underneath the stars.

Makes me wanna run
to the edge of the sun.

It feels like I'm walking..

With no destination.

I'm lost with question.

And not a single answer.

I'm searching for it.

But, I'll never find it.

You grab my hand..

You say it hurts to see me like this.

Just hold my hand, give me a kiss and I'll be alright.

Because, I'm okay with you by my side.

Day by day..

I grow weaker

Day by day..

I get more and more depressed

Day by day..

Is the more I forget.

I've lost myself today.
You say I'll find my way..
But, I won't..

Because, today

Is

The

Day.

Please take me seriously.
I will end myself.
Maybe I just need some help.
But, where do I look?
Just take the life out of me.
And put it into someone else.
I'm done.
I'll give everything to take my life away.
So goodbye.
And don't ever wonder why.

You think that a poem has to rhyme?

No. Believe me, I tried.

And guess what ?

Poems aren't always about what you feel.

It's just things in general.

So stop mocking my poems

They don't have to rhyme.

Not all the time.

Pins and needles evolve about my skin..

You wouldn't think this is the end..

But it is.

You
       Are
              Overrated.

Just
        Like
                Having
                             A
              
      
                 **baby

I accepted you..
When nobody else would.

I trusted you...
When I could.

I loved you..
When I was drunk..

Wasn't that enough?

I honestly don't know
what else to tell you.

Because, you've hurt me.
And I've hurt you too.

Death**

What if I died?

Just decided.. well..  
you all don't care..

And just took my last breath of air?

Would you miss me?

Probably not.

The thought of letting go..

Just too much to bare with.

But I understood the words..

Leave Me Alone

I drink to forget..

I suppose you don't care.

But, the pain is too much..

And this is where I say enough.

Because, I'm too scared to say goodbye..

If you thought I was okay..
You were wrong.
If I faked a smile...
Would you be gone?