sadness
and happiness
so close
yet so far apart
my heart filled its self
with this loving hurt
and that is when I knew
it is an honor
to be human

when I visit
my previous home
I’m welcomed back
with a kick in my stomach
so I bow
thank you for having me back
where do you want me
but while I bow
the fog in my head clears up
so I turn around
and run
as far away as I can
but I can never get myself
to throw away
the key

flowers
I want them
blooming and blossoming
everywhere around me
living life
to the fullest
bringing color
to the darkest corners
of my mind
and it's hard for flowers
to grow
without a little
rain

it appears
out of nowhere
in front of me
no warning
nothing
it ***** me in
makes me leave all traces
of rationality
and logic behind
so that I end up
surrounded
by total darkness
with no way
to find a way out

Like pearls
Rolling down the landscape
That is my face
Up and down
Speeding up
Slowing down
Giving eachother a chance
To catch up
An endless race
Where nobody wins