we dont know what the future might hold
But we had it in our hands to mould
We can look far away and dream we dont have to put the blindfold


Im left broken and destroyed
Pain took me to another level of being paranoid
My heart looks like a molten Polaroid


U started acting weird all of the sudden  
Ignoring me not talking i guess u didnt want it to flood in
But it ended up with me wanting to shut in  

With molten gold i dip my soul
And a sharp knife i chisel my life
One thing that will never change  
will always love you

Im sick sickened  stricken by a fist of pure hate and disease
Im the death
And the cold
You'll end with me
Remember you never had love

I lost a friend
I didnt expect it to end
A friendship like godsend
Out of the blue
Got a message felt like getting the flue
Got me all dizzy
Couldnt believe what i saw so i acted busy
What can i say what can i do
I thought when we said forever together it was true
Did i do something wrong  ?
All i could do is to dive headlong
I demanded a reason
I havent done no treason
All i heard was empty excuses
I couldnt let it go easily
I cant be one who loses
But i was losing the argument breezily 
I can't force my presence on someone
If it all it does is hurt them
So i had to let go
But i felt so dumb

Whsiper in my ear
I want to hear
Your words sounding like love
I wanna fly like a dove
Flying up high in the sky
Until i fall and say good bye
To this messed up world that wont give me a break
It was all fake
I wasnt a saint
All i wanted is to paint
A smile all over the walls
But i didnt have the *****
To change whats wrong
So all i gotta do is listen to a song
Until i fade away
Into the abyss i pray
To a god that will hear me
And hopefully forsaken me

This the end of me
Lost in a field of disbelief
Giving up and on my knees
My mind can't believe what it sees
A red mist of air
Taking the lives of what's near
I'm just waiting for it to come here
Come on
Come on
Come on
Every time it gets close i go back
It takes me back
It takes me back
I just want to end
I don't want to relive the past
It hurts
Its full of pain
Ill go insane
No one takes the blame
Can i just leave this place
I can't be known i don't wanna be known
Can u just burn this face
No one will know no one will know
Who was i  or what happened
Ill be anonymous
I don't wanna be no Spartacus
I don't wanna be a hero
I don't wanna be a villain
Can't i be just chillin
I wanna be unknown
I wanna be in this field
I wanna be healed
I wanna be forgiven
But that door is sealed
I'm helpless I'm hopeless
So come take me
Red mist come take me
I won't look behind
I'm ready to be the one who died

U liked a friend
It wasnt the end
Why am i so sad
Its not that bad
Why is there an urge
To slit a throat
Its like a sinking boat
I should stop
STOP 
Against my head there's glock
Tik tok goes the clock
Waiting for the cursed minute to pass
I warned people about it
But all they did is mock
This aint no poem  this aint no hip hop
This is a cry for help