I'm afraid of the outside
all I see is pain and suffering.
It Scare's me to see the world for what it has become.
Death, theft, and drug's
I can't stand it anymore I'm scared
just want to lock myself away plug my ears and close my eyes
And hope that it was all a dream.
I've always wondered what the world would look like through someone elses eyes is it truly this evil or am I the only one who See's this horror. Do we have a chance of saving this world or is it lost already.

I was always told that god has a reason for me to be alive.
always told that the path I should take will be shown to me
to just have faith and wait the time will come
but time and time again I've lost my way
and time and time again my mind wanders
as I walk aimlessly through the world
wondering what I have done to have lost my faith
but time has shown me that I can't leave God with all the work
I am to meet him half way if I am to truly  see what God has for me
for that is the true meaning of faith.

I was hurt, I had thought it would heal fast, but I was naive
someone like me won't need something like love
a person's feelings are scary
having to act strong even when I'm weak
having to smile when I'm hurt deep inside
but I guess it doesn't work that way
being in love can be so painful
it's upsetting to think that to her I just exists
and nothing else

looking around hoping to find a light
only to see darkness has already
closed in around me like a wall
with no escape

I sit alone in the dark thinking
screaming but no sound is coming out
voices that remind me I'm all alone
to embrace the darkness and let it end.