Losing, torture, death, these thing I’m afraid of
Power, strength, ecstasy, I try to attain
Love, ***, pleasure, I always look for it
Jealousy, people, life, I just can’t take it
Family, friends, partners, I lost so many
Trust, secrets, affinity, I will take it for granted
I go through all these emotion. I sometime feel so weak.
I sometimes feel so strong. Being human is sometimes hard but what else can I be?

Hanging out with a female is more exciting than with a guy.

It’s nice for a change a girl approach you and look into your eyes.

You hit my arm as you laugh at my joke, you play with my hands and hair and test my strength.
I never understood your intention and why you pick me over everyone else
I never understand why you ask how many woman I been with

I’m so stupid I thought you meant at school or at home

I never lay with a woman before, the thought of it never come to mind

This was something my teacher never prepared me for, this was something you experience after high school.
I was scared at first but you hold my hand and guide me through

As I catch the rhythm my body and spirit went with the flow  

I grab the concept on how to perform and got better I felt like a pro

Thing was getting good but I too cocky and too slow

After every session you remind me this not a relationship
After every relationship I try to avoid another you

Here's to my father who I never met
Never met his other sons or his daughters

The only way to see you, I'll have to be underground and buried
Why the other half of my family feel like they don't care

Sometime I think I long for you, so such things are missing in my life
I think I'm better off without you but I'm so confuse in this world

Sometimes I fear you may hurt me like my mother or even worse
I don't know if you'll understand my pain and hold me in your arms

All I ever heard is that your my father and I remind them of you
I don't know who you are not sure if I want to know

If we do meet just remind me what I'm missing and show me what it like to have a father