Honey oozing out of your mouth as you speak
Glazing my ear with a seductive coat of kindness
Brilliantly beguiling my cartilage into a counterfeit tenderness
Diffusing its blissfully pungent aroma into my nose
Pulling my face towards you
Gracefully tilting my chin up
Eloquently dripping down your lips onto mine
Allowing me to taste your divine ooze

Breathing on my neck like an asymptote

I yell
I scream
I promise I won’t cut myself
I walk towards the haunting drawer
I pull out that dark filled sword
I yell
I scream
I promise I won’t cut myself
I toss that scar filled tool across the room
I crawl towards my sinful truth
I yell
I scream
I promise I won’t cut myself
I reach you unsheathe you
I stare at your shining features
I place your cold groove on my damaged wool
I drag till I see red bloom

You delivered my last wake up call  
Pressing your mouth on mine ringing me
to pick up a call from this ****** world
With that I sensed a cold breath of air running down my throat forcing me to grasp for air

But I remember jumping
I jumped for a reason
I wanted to drown in this vast sea
To have my last taste be of salt
But you pulled me up and handed me air
The last connection to my life line

Hesitantly I grabbed the gold plated phone
Opened my eyes and saw a bright red color
The color that defined you
I answered the phone on a storm less sailboat
And took my last chance at this very sad life

I sat shivering in your frigid car
With rain like tears trickling down my face
You reluctantly asked me what was wrong
So I just sat there and lied because if I opened my mouth I would blame you I would tell you that it’s your fault I’m crying
Because you were the first to teach me to love a man that will never love you back
You were the first man that let me love you just so that I could be let down with neglect
You taught me to tag along side men
To follow them until they notice me
To call even if I got rejected
continuously forcing dry conversation
Allowing them to step all over me with rebuff
You your self walk around loving other woman more then your daughter so how can I expect other men to choose me over someone else father