I've loved you quietly, ever since,
Before the world could make me flinch,
Before I knew that love could ache,
Or hearts could crack, or voices break.

I held you in each hidden prayer,
In stolen glances, silent stares,
You were the hope I didn’t name,
The constant in a world that changed.

But loving you, though pure and true,
Feels like a gift I can't give you.
Not whole, not right , not what you need,
Not what your heart deserves to keep.

So I will try to walk away,
Though part of me will always stay.
You need a love that has no doubt,
No fear, no shadows stretched throughout.

Mine never wavered, never strayed,
But pain still lived where love once laid.
And though it breaks me, still I’ll go
You deserve more than I can show.

Yet even from a world apart,
You’ll always live inside my heart.
And if you ask me why I do
It’s because I’ve always loved you.

I do not fear love
I fear the gravity of him.
He is the storm wrapped in sunlight,
the gentle ruin of every wall I built.

His presence is poetry
a language my soul has always known
but never dared to speak.
He is fire beneath silk,
the hush before a kiss,
the ocean tide that pulls at the shores of my restraint.

To fall for him
would be to surrender my wings
to a sky that might never let me go and yet,
what sweeter fall is there than into a heart
that feels like forever?

I told my soul to rest to let your absence be
But why this constant falling make this soul's insanity
Each glimpse, a bitter nectar a joy that cuts like pain
How do I unweave this feeling?

This feeling of consuming chain
I've waited through the silence
Where dreams have turned to gray
Now I'm steeped in blue, where longing holds its sway.

I chased the butterflies your actions spun
Only to learn they were a phase undone
My subtle words a love I longed to share
Met with a silence a feeling beyond repair

A single word and I'd have crossed the waves
And build a world that I long to dream
But deeper knowing brings a deeper fall
Your crave for silence to escape it all

I wished you knew this hope so frail and slight
Longed for your words to make it truly bright
To bury moments and release your hold
And if I asked, what story would be told?

You painted shadows, on my mental wall,
A darkened hallway, where I fear to crawl.
Each creaking sound, a phantom in the night,
A whispered threat, steals my inner light.
I walk on eggshells, fearing every tread,
The anxious path, your presence has instead.

No need for words, the heart can see,
A mirrored depth, where spirits be.
A knowing glance, a silent hum,
Two souls entwined, as one they've come.

Where in this world, of fleeting things,
Soulmate love, forever sings.
A pure connection, thru thick and thin
My platonic soulmate , were not meant to be.

To my platonic soulmate,
We were not meant to be romantic.
We were just meant to be.

Although the love we have each other
is undeniable and although the love
we have each other exists,

It was not meant to stretch beyond
the pure unions of friendship.
It was not meant to stretch at our heartstrings
but instead it was meant to gently massage them into peace.
It was not meant to stretch your leg over my shoulder
at three o'clock in the morning
after a night filled with laughter and conversation.

It was not meant to stretch past the boundaries we subconsciously
set to ensure that things don't get complicated.
It was not meant to stretch our connection into emotional destinations that have no return tickets if we took that plunge.

Romance is not the only reason the universe brings souls together.
Growth and love can exist without it.
Perhaps we were not meant to be romantic
Perhaps we were only meant to be.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
One leads to love, the other, goodbye.
My heart it trembles, torn in two,
Which choice to make, what shall I do?

Time pass by and seasons turn
That first love's ember still burn
A memory cherished, bittersweet
A feeling nothing can defeat

For I feel love and free
You opened up my heart to me
And though our paths may now diverge
My first love's flame will always surge.

In silent nights, I call your name,
Yet echoes fade like distant flame.
A love once bright, now dim and cold,
A story left in sorrow told.

The stars still shine, the moon still glows,
But in my heart, the shadow grows.
For love remains, though you have flown,
And I am here, yet still alone.

Her curtains are blue.
You painted it yellow.