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do you think i wanted this
do you think this is the way i thought it would turn out
do you think im sorry for my scars
you should love someone for everything about them, even if they have scars or if they have a bad past, love should be that moment when you look at someone and they make you happy, when you hear that someones voice all you can think about is happy thoughts and you could forget everything thats going on around you, you should love someone for them and for being themselves
When I was little, I stuck scissors into the electrical outlet
something I never would have had the urge to do if my parents hadn't told me it was dangerous
I was a rocket pop, always standing too close to the edge,
always carrying a matchbook in my pocket

I'm not the only one who flirts with death
Death is the quarterback, death is the prettiest ******* the cheerleading team
Death is popular at parties
And when someone seems so out of my reach like that, I tend to romanticize them

So I fantasized about pills that shone like pearls
I envisioned ribs sticking out from my skeletal frame, finally frail enough to ****** the object of my desires
I thought about razor blades scattered like flower petals on the bathroom floor
Etching memento moris into my skin
I dreamed of fenders and pavement rushing up to meet my lips for one last kiss

God, I had the biggest crush on death
But so did everyone else
And I saw them falling further in love as if they were tumbling from a skyscraper
This is not a love poem, this is a goodbye
Because I have instead become infatuated with beautiful things
I am a creator, so I must stop destroying myself

Dear death
I don't want to be just another girl who doesn't look when she crosses the street, hoping to meet you on the other side
I will be okay on my own, and I'll keep the scissors locked up in the craft cabinet
This is meant to be a spoken word poem, so imagine a shaky fifteen year old girl reading it out loud to you. It's pretty hopeful at the end, but it's more of an optimistic prediction than a reflection of my current state of mind. I'll figure it out.
1,2,3,4
I declare a time war
5,6,7,8
Daleks scream EXTERMINATE
9,10,11,12
Time is up, the doctor's done
12,11,10,9
There he goes, back in time
8,7,6,5
Saving everybody's lives
4,3,2,1
Grabbed my hand and whispered run.
I DID NOT CREATE THIS.
I SAW THIS ONLINE AND THOUGHT TO REPOST IT HERE.
REPEAT: I DID NOT WRITE THIS.
help me
i need help
im bleeding
i cant take the pain anymore
the moment when you left me
i couldn't take it, the pain it hurts so bad
i found a new friend
it makes my feel ok
but then it hurts me
it makes a beautiful picture on my skin
but it is telling me that everything is ok
She never lied, she never lies,
She just ignores.
The truth,
I tried to tell her how I feel,
She just ignored,
The proof.
"Then try to think of something else", she said.
"Write the other way"
Whenever she'd drink and rant like this,
I'd stay out of her way.
Because “real”, for her, seemed to signify,
I tried it once, but should probably try again.
I was real with you, that once,
Only, later,  to find
That those imploring me to "relax",
Insisting things would be different,
If only I could "flow", If only I could "see"...
You said, “be real”, and now the memory
Just turns my ******* stomach
Since all of those whose mantra called,
For a plea to just “be real”
Were the least capable, almost to the man,
Of being anything close to that.
Born in awareness of the shortcomings of humankind, this was a cynical piece of verse, just like the self-absorbed, whining humans it stands for.  It is an exercise in bad attitude and there is some shame in having created it.  It expresses things perfectly, though.  It is an irrational response to the inherent weaknesses of people who claim to care and the ungrateful reaction of those receiving any.

Read here by the author:  
https://soundcloud.com/warmphase/a-thing-of-joy
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For all the people that have loved me, or even cared,
I'm worthless...
I have a dramatic  life,
I fall in love with people i will never have.
I have lots of people that i don't know that hate me,
I have lots of stupid things about me.
I always have drama,  (most of the time i put myself in it.)
I'm so, worthless.
Why try suicide?
Suicide is not a good thing.
When you commit suicide.
There are lots of things you should think of,
Like, your family & friends.
You don't know how many people would die if you did.?
There are many.
And if you have dealt with family or friends committing suicide.
How did you feel when they died.?
Did you feel sad, mad, or depressed?
Well if you did.
Would you want your family or friends to go through that?
If you really didn't like them you would,
But i'm pretty sure, that most of you wouldn't.
But would you feel bad if you died and your family and friends were depressed, sad, or mad.?
I would.
I know sometimes i want to commit suicide.
But deep down.
I just cant.
My family loves me. (even though sometimes i feel they don't.)
My friends love me. (even though sometimes i feel they don't.)
But. I guess it's whatever.
But,
Why try **suicide
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