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In every here I've ever been,
I've wanted to be somewhere else.

I rather sit in a coffee shop in a small town, and sip on my latte and look at the pretty people walking by.
I rather dance in the rain with my friends then hide out from one of the simplest pleasures of life.
I rather have a deep conversation with someone about life, death and the passion that lie with themselves.
I rather go to a little joint to see a up and coming band, because I know one day this band is going to make it big.
I rather get roses on random days, than get roses on the one day of the year that people actually care.
I rather sit in my room at 2 am in the morning burning candles and drinking tea and reminiscing on my life.
I rather be alone sometimes, and not be bothered.
I rather be well known for the poems I write, the books I publish, the opinions I produce, and the mind behind it all.
I rather have something to live for, something to give me a purpose to breathe air, I rather have that reason be myself, because what lies ahead of me is hope for a tomorrow.

Isaiah keeps me up.
he lets the monsters in.
he helps them try and win.
he talks to me at the wee hours in the night.
reminding me of all my flaws
imperfections and scars.
he tells me how worthless i am.
how terrible i truely am.
he never stops.
the ringing in my ears.
his words, my fears.
his smile, my tears.