Forgiving,
It’s so much easier than expected,
So much easier than everyone tells,
As I no longer feel pain,
feel drained,
feel weak,
I feel empathy for you.
I apologise you your actions,
I’m sorry I got hurt,
I mean, it was all a misunderstanding,
Right?
But forgetting is different,
Complete contrast,
Flinching when you reach for the pillow,
Being careful of the words that leave me,
Constantly walking on thin, weak, frayed threads,
Ready to snap,
For you to snap,
Subconsciously never forget,
Actions so tiny yet an extension to the harsh reality,
The need to be back,
As a holistically beautiful couple,
When before I didn’t have to forgive,
As now I can’t forget.
Painful relationship.