This isn't love, This isn't hate.
This is that sorta thing hard to relate.
This isn't luck, this isn't fate,
This is that sorta thing hard to escape.

This is the truth, this is a lie,
This is my reason for getting on by,
This is a low, this is a high,
This is the reason I ask myself, why?.

This is a story that shouldn't be wrote.
This is a saying that you shouldn't quote.
This is a struggle that I've never spoke,
This is the reason I'm rowing the boat.

Why am I rowing the boat?

Refusing to sink,
3 a.m and i think,
By 5 a.m &I; might be crouched over a sink,

What of this life,
So called living,
so called, i haven't felt full since thanksgiving.

So called, so called...
God did his roll call,

And for a second I hesitated.
And whispered, Here... You?
The reply i got was..

I Hear You.



-afj

All I want in a girl
is someone who I can show off with a deep sense of pride
who accepts the pain I buried deep inside

All I want is someone that respects my space
with pretty eyes and a wonderful face
Someone who's kind and supporting, but knows when I'm wrong
Someone worth dedicating an entire song

All I want is someone who's classy but nasty
and isn't afraid to be sassy
All I want is someone who's funny and meek
I don't want cardboard cutout, give me unique
All I want is someone who I can be myself around
I don't have to put on a mask or bury my head into the ground

All I want is someone... who's just as crazy as me.
but where oh where can she be?

In bed we won't ask  .  .  .
Our bodies curled in questions,
  .  .  .  Does love ever last?

Always sticking out
Never quite fitting in
Never really belonging
Anywhere I've been

Always feeling alone
Even in a crowd
Never being heard
Even when I scream out loud

Never loved or missed
Always an after-thought
Readily dismissed
The one that you forgot

Lonely and scared
That I'll always be alone
No one knocking on my door
No one calling on the phone

That's how it's always been
Just me all on my own
No one there to hold me
So I spend my life alone

Some people are so nice
You just have to smile
And others so mean
It's quite a trial

Sometimes I lose faith
In the whole human race
Then someone will come
Put a smile on my face

They restore my belief
That people are GOOD
That people exist
Who do what they should

Be kind, fair and honest
Spread love and delight
Respect other people
And do what is right!

I'm lucky to call
Some of these people my friends
And am grateful to know
They'll be there till the end

They'll be there for me
When I am in need
and be happy to know
They've done a good deed

It warms my heart
To see people like this
To know that they're there
That they still exist

It makes me so happy
I smile like a dope
They restore my faith
And give me new hope!

As I sit here in time
And chip away rocks
One rock at a time
One falls to the ground
With blood on my hands
I chip at another stained with sweat
It was from an old lover
I look to the ground
And its covered by another
As I chip away at life
My pile is very full
I shuffle through rocks
To see where I'll go
I see rocks stained with tears
I see rocks from my past years
I find rocks of heart aches
Which there were many
I find rocks of joy
Which there are plenty
There's rocks filled with herion
That's from my past
There rocks of forgiving
Those are rocks that last
There's rocks of bad
From when I was a boy
There's rocks of lonlyness
From when I was alone
No matter the cause
No matter the reason
These are rocks of my life
It's what gives me meaning

As I walked in the door
I saw a rose on the floor

A note at my feet
That said follow me

Peddle by peddle I found on the floor
A trail I would follow to the one I ador

The sent of her love
I picked up in the air

I walked passed a mirror
That said I love you in lipstick

My heart then started pounding
Full of love

I have to find my women
Is all I know

She loves these little games
It arouses me so

She's hiding somewhere
And I want her so

She tries to hide
But her  breathing is so hard

My passion goes wild
Because I love this girl

She can't hold it in
Nor either can I

We make love all night
Like the stars in the sky

As I lye on the pier
At the end of Key West

I look at the stars
and think about life

As dark as it is
The sky is so bright

A trillion miles away
And we still see the light

How can this be I often wonder
Is there other life
or is it our God of thunder

What ever it is
It's filled with miracle's

Miracle's of matter
Miracle's of life

If you really love her
Romance her like no other

Not once a week
But every day

If she is your life
and if you want her to stay

Give her one rose
Day by day

Tell her you love her
In every way

She should be so special everyday

Keep that loving feeling
and she'll always stay

We always forget
and take love for granted

Remember her life
and always romance her