I just don't have energy for this world anymore.
It drains you of the pains and highs and the lows and the sadness and the happiness.

You make your way everyday,
It's like walking through mud. Where's the joy anymore?
Quite frankly, I don't have energy for joy anymore.

I love being happy,
I'll be happy again.
But right now, I don't have any energy for this world.

Through this lens, I look at a flower
Magenta in colour.
Snap.
Further along the flowerbed, I see a red rose,
Its petals immaculate.
Snap.
As the Canon focuses,
As each pixel becomes clearer and more vivid,
And colours more vibrant, I
Snap, snap, snap.
Through my lens, I turn the camera and
Observe your ****** expression;
What do I see?
Snap.

I miss you.
I never told you what you meant to me.
I couldn't.
But I should have.
I miss you.
We used to go on coffee dates.
But then again, I hated coffee.
I miss you.
I shouldn't have done what I did.
But then again, I did.
I miss you.
And it kills me.

So there's just one lil ordinary girl'
Trying to set free her own world.
Left by her biological dad, taken from her mom at 3.
When she got old enough to know,
That's when her life turned upside down.
Always seeing the lil girl with frowns,
Makes you wanna turn them upside down.
She had felt like leaving town and everyone else behind her.
Thinking of it made her feel so unkind.
As everything goes on,
Look through the stars and beyond.
No matter what them all have gotta do,
They'll never keep her away from you.
                                -s.g

Can I find a truth,
Within the walls of the soul?
Or aimless reasons?