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Oct 2014 Lukas

Voice Mail

Oct 2014 Lukas

Beaux

Hey it's me. Uh I was just calling to say I'm sorry
I know it's late and I know I'm an idiot for ever letting you go, but um,
Without you my life has a hole that can't be filled with anything else
The moon smiles at me as the stars dim out
They could never shine as bright as your eyes, but without you they have no reason to glow
At night the darkness is a cloak, it wraps me up trying to offer comfort
But only with you beside me could I ever be warm again
I've become a shell of the boy you once knew
I no longer have a reason to smile, My eyes have lost their glow, My laugh is dry from under use
I know I was never the prince you wanted or the good guy you needed, but things are different now
I'll hold your hand when you get scared, Hold you whether you need it or not, Be your shoulder to cry on
I guess what I want to say is,
*Baby I love you

For Ms.Rosie Pleasure, my reason to fight

#love #pain #sorry #magicath

Oct 2014 Lukas

R(h)ope

Oct 2014 Lukas

Erenn

R(h)ope

These lines on my neck
Scars scarred of regrets
Reminding me everyday how i’m blessed
If the rope didn't break by chance
If those 'angels' hadn't come in time
I’ll be in a place where heaven & hell doesn't coexist

I live my life differently now
Every day breathing in spores of hope
Everyday with families & friends pulling me back-
from my melancholy past
Every time i intend to plummet

These strangers that i now called friends(angels)
Saved me from myself
When they saw someone from their pane
With a hope pulling end
They cut through every enmity
Cutting that rope of contempt

As I dropped
Head first kissing the floor
I knew then & there
Why my life is so eminent
Why let love end my existence
Why there are still people who cared
Why leave when there's-
so much more to live for

All these answers gushing in
Making me realize
Just like a rope
You can either use it to end your life
Or you can climb your way to the top

*Choose before you lose to the noose.

There are many form of suicides. And all of them are obtusely deluded.
More or less painful or the quickest way to die.
But hanging yourself by a rope that helped you to pull difficulties in life is just a stupid way to die.
So if u want to die, My best advice is wait.
Wait until you aged.
Wait until you can't remember your sins.
Wait until you cant remember why you wanted to die.
Flaws are meant to happen.
But don't let the intent/influence of suicide fool you.
You can never go back.
I assure you.
You can never ever come back.

#suicide #depression #pain #hope #you #suffering #demise #noose #rope #hang

Oct 2014 Lukas

Eulogy

Oct 2014 Lukas

Jinxx

Eulogy

I can see the black box
I can see the flowers
I can see the sorrowed faces
I can see the tears
Jinxx, You were, no are my best friend
You could joke about anything
Make any day that much better
The toughest times make the strongest people
You may not have been able to see the world
But you saw people the way they are
Not by what they wear or how they look
Not by if they have short or long hair
A symmetrical face or a crooked one
It didn't bother you one bit
Weight, race, and gender, didn't even cross your mind
You saw people's beauty no matter what
Jinxx you were the best ******* basketball player I'll ever know
You could rock out like no one cared
Most of the time they didn't
You are the best friend a guy could ask for
I know one day soon we'll be together again
Some day really soon buddy
Remember,
Life is Good, life is great
Always love and never hate
Break the rules stand apart
Ignore your head and follow your heart
I know this isn't goodbye but it feels that way
I love you
Until we meet again I bid you farewell dear Jinxx

#goodbye