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Pity self pity puke
Laugh
Smile pity puke
Help
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Ignore
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Pity help puke
Ignore
Ignore
Ignore again
Puke again
Yell
Again
Loud. Very loud. Scream
Rudabega
Fade
Where do we go from here

I want to die
I'm gonna **** myself
Not so goodbye

It's selfish for u
To say it's selfish for me
To want to die

It's a little selfish
That u still want me around

Now that I'm dead,

Inside
       and
Out

I am no walk in the park
On the sweet spring morning
Where flowers erupt
And whistles fly

I am no dip in the ocean
On the hot summer afternoon
With salt on my tongue
And sun in my eye

I am no star studded sky
On the cool autumn eve
Where leaves change their colors
And so do I

In winter comes hope
That the seasons to come
Will bring forth better things
And in seasons so will I

Remind me now
I am the erupting flowers
I am the sun in His eyes
I am the changing colors
I am in season for life

Every day is a beautiful struggle
Life is a contradictory of sorts
The world is so pretty
But there's so much ugly in it

To smile you must endure pain
To feel happy you must know sad
Every single day my heart breaks
But I choose to love any way

Life is not fair
It never has been
It never will be

Life is beautiful
But life *****

There are days that I struggle

To find the beauty inside and out

This place that I live on Earth

This place that I live in my mind

Is so abandoned

Is so empty


And then you came around

And then you grabbed my mind

She has what I want
She kisses your lips

You make me tremble
You grab my hips

She wants your love
She wants it all

Why would you let
A girl like me fall

I want you all to myself
Leave her, Let go

But she's your big love
And I'm all alone

You tell me I'm different
You smile, You're fun

But at the end of the day
She'll always be The Big One

I listen to my watch tick
& watch my life pass me by
In each moment I feel numb
I can taste the bitterness inside
My senses tell me my faith is fading
With each new tick that I spend waiting
I discover Nothing ive ever known is real 
Now How am I supposed to feel?

You are the one who makes me laugh
You are the one I turn to when I just need to chat
I've never felt so good as I feel when I'm with you
But sometimes things change
And we fell through
Like the leaves on the trees
You changed too
Now you were the one who made me smile
And now I've got no one to turn to and talk
And all this time we were destined for disaster
And just like Fall leaves on the trees
You had to go and change too

I just want something I can call my own
Something that makes me feel like my place in this world is meaningful
I just want something that I can say "that's mine"
And people won't understand why I love it so much
But they will understand how it makes me feel
Because everybody's got something they can call their own
I just want something I can finally say is all mine

I once had a soul but somehow I lost it Once had a life I sold for change in my pocket But even that's gone I had to buy gum Even I found a way to give all I had for baby's breath

Our flame is going out and we are coming to an end. The sparks that once created such light are no longer there. Our wick stands strong beneath wax but our flame goes out and it's left burnt and vulnerable, ready to break at any second, and we see through those dark times and know that we can still burn and we will shine on. And you are my matchstick and you have lost your flame also. All matchsticks burn out eventually, but I keep you in my memory because I hope that one day you might come back, and we might light that eternal flame, my eternal love. Matchsticks come and matchsticks go, but we always remember that matchstick that made our first flame glow brighter than ever.

The suicide of rain drops
All jumping out of clouds
Silent screams while they drip
Screams while they drip drop
Dead sounds a lot like plop
When you think like a rain drop

Going so fast but we're moving so slow Wondering if we'll ever reach the end of this tunnel Do I wanna die with strangers or is this supposed to happen I've never met anyone like you And it all comes back to you I'm desperate for passion with the first person I meet Lacking all self value I deserve My life is a window seat I watch all the beauty pass and I'm trapped on this train dying with strangers I've got a destination but I'm not even sure I want to end up there There's no such thing as a final destination We're always going other places I never want to know where I'm going to end up Just wanna get on a plane and live my life Why am I so incapable of love or is it I just don't want to I want to be needed I want something real Nothing I know is real except the world is pretty The world is really pretty