It's okay
The things I say
Is just me repeating the words
They are saying
While they tell me
It's all their fault
It's all father's fault
It's all brother's fault
The scars on my skin
Reflects their harsh words

I can't
I can't do anything
I can't be sober for more than a week or two
I can't keep myself away from the blade
I can't keep myself from clawing at myself
At my face
With my sharp finger nails
Forcing pain onto myself
Forcing myself to bite my finger
Hoping it would eventually bleed
Make it feel worse than skin upon dried ice
It hurts
Yet it's all their fault.

You know
We can just spend some time together
Find out what we both like
Go out skating
Take walks by the beach
Everything is fine!

We can do anything that you like
Give my drink a spike
Allow me to escort you
Allow me to be your loyal dog
Get us into a deadly bar fight
We can take walks down the road
Watching an old guy driving, looking at his phone
Only for him not to hit us
******…

Hands so delicate
Force me to be quiet
Be rough with me
Choke me
But why won't you join in my plan?

We're perfect together and you know it
We'd be in articles named “the perfect suicide"
“Lover's suicide"
We can intertwine our hearts
We can cross the bridge to my dreams!
Don’t you want to take a ride?
Don't you wanna see the pearly white gates shine?
Want to see which religion is correct?
Rather than see some frogs dissect?

It would be so beautiful
WE'D be so beautiful
On our deathbeds
Facing each other
Hoping our wedding will be as perfect as this moment
Goodbye.