there are no kisses and hugs
no missing or love
were laughs become screams
and tears become streams

nobody dares to speak
for we are all too weak
and afraid of what should be loved

as my mum comes near
we all stand in fear
wondering who will be next
to be pulled by the hair
and get given no care
only painful kicks and stares

I tried hiding under my bed
for sooner or later I will be dead
we're all just living in dread

I can no longer take the pain
there really is no gain

because things are just different in my house...

Golden eyes
you disguised pain so beautifully
you hid my love notes in your shoes
you thought you loved the girl I used to be
I thought I knew what love was made of
pressed against your car
you smelled just like the ocean
I felt kept inside your arms
I had no knowledge of commitment
I was only seventeen
wanting a body made of heaven
born decades before me
we smoked cigarettes and danced
for hours in the rain
you were as gentle as the wind
I didn't mean to cause you pain
confusion is a cloud that visits
every n o w and t h e n
when I think of nights spent on the phone
and days worshiping your skin
whether or not you think of me
is fine and either way
you were a message wrote in cursive
that I r e p e a t everyday

Laying all alone in this dark, empty room
No one home, no one there
Listening to sad songs
Just a child, having to grow up

The tissues pile up around me
The tears pour out my eyes
I try to put on a smile
But my eyes give me away

My eyes weary, and tired
Tears cascade like a waterfall
The sheets cold around my body
Longing for warmth and love

All alone in a sad, cold room
Lonely nights with no one there
The blankets provide no comfort
Your smell still lingers

I can taste you, feel you, hear you
I want you, I need you
You're gone
All alone in a dark, depressed room

These sad words haunt me
These sad tears hurt me
You're voice, our memories **** me
No one is there to hold me

day and night
you push and pull me down
you push me away
you pull me down,
                         down to the ground
you weigh me down
day and night
                                i feel hurt, and abused
you put a whole in my heart
             You keep coming back
but i disappear
                                              I'm gone