A breath of fresh air

Eyes wide and alert, gazing

I have awaken, Love Life

Am I  perceived as this beautiful bombshell that has yet to explode

I have laid dormant for many years but yet you fear to hold

What is it that you fear, death or you being wrong about me

My smile shows you that I am kind and my sweet embrace shows that you are my fate

Lively soul, yes that is I
Life of the party, yes why shall I lie

My enthusiastic nature paints a picture of devastation

But to get to know the power gives the energy to see if there is more to the image being painted

It was always funny to you to see me in tears

I tried to express my fears, you made the situation seem weird

I held my hand out asking for help, you slapped it back and said help yourself

You were suppose to be my all, my everything

I thought that was the reason you brought the wedding ring

Time has passed and minds have cleared

I have moved on and found a new reason to cry

And yes it is a new guy and I cry because he makes me feel like everything is going to be alright

Either I write to fill a void or avoid how I feel

Me bottling things up have caused me stress, I have become depressed with all this **** weighting down on my chest

Mix emotions about who I am destroys my mind

Why do I have to settle, when I know I was made to shine

Why do my wants and needs make you think I am trying to over exceed

Expressing myself just gets me looked over and me hiding myself makes people think they can just run over....Me

But now I see,I really do see

You just want me to unleash this beast that dwells inside of me

You want these pretty brown eyes to turn blood shot red and watch in fear as blood vessels burst all around my pupils

You want to see this pretty smile turn gruesome and grim

You want to see the limbs of pass lovers stuck between these rugged sharp teeth that protrude from my mouth

You want to hear me gargling their blood and tears and see me consume what they protested as Love,Want, and Desire

Are you sure you want me to unleash this beast that dwells inside me

WHAT a wonderful day, heart filled with joy, happiness at my door step once again,  IM READY TO TAKE THAT LEAP.... I deserve this warm feeling all over, I deserve this, this tantalizing piece of hope...WAIT WHATS THIS, IT CANT BE, why are these clouds suddenly darkening and im feeling raindrops on my cheek, It was suppose to be a beautiful day....I FOR ONCE WAS GOING TO BE HAPPY, Stop stepping on my sunshine, It was suppose to be a good day. I shouldn't see these dark clouds when I look up at the sky. I guess the forecast lied again or just wasn't ready to give me my sunny day.

I don't care how you leave my life,just as long as you are gone

Jump fences, dive in rivers, your presence never belonged

Wanting to be loved shield me from all the wrong

But as I find myself your mistreatment of me is now shown

I am the queen of what ifs
Sitting on a throne of could've beens

My fears are my loyal subjects
Escorting my dreams to the gallows

My ambitions are now prisoners
To my court of procrastination

I, the queen
Reign over all of this regret