He said I was so young
And that he wouldn't mind trading shoes with me

I told him well age is just a number
He is 55

What a strange man
Just live in the present
There are no problems

There is no youth or old age
Free your mind sir
Of these concepts

It reminds me of the license plate
That says
"I'd rather be"

You would rather be
But you are not
So do what you do
And live in the present
That's all there will ever be

Yes, this life is quite strange indeed

I live in a constant fear of what I might lose tomorrow.
The thought of waking up one day and everything I thought was worth living for is just taken away like that.

I live in a constant fear of losing who I truly am while trying to chase my happiness.
I fear that one day I might look in the mirror and not recognise who I am.

No one knows how I honestly feel,
Because I cant bring myself to tell them.

In this world of make believe
darlin it's just you & me
together that's how it's suppose to be
with a love we share for eternity
in this land of fairy tales
hearts of gold and magic spells
dreams come true with the wishing wells
the truest of love rings the wedding bells
always forever no sad farewells
breathe in my love
you feel it as you exhale
a place called heaven
with no place called hell
a reason to live with a life that's not frail
throw away the oars
and let's just set sail
in the world of make believe
take me to another place
i need to feel your body baby
driving me so crazy
i just need to feel your body baby
take me to another place
i just need to feel your body close t o me

photographs become
the saddest things.
and moments are
so special, yes,
but to pervert them
is a form of slavery.

I'm so sorry that I keep pushing you away.
My chest tightens at the thought of being in love.
I've been hurt so many **** times that it physically makes me sick to think about falling for someone again.
God, you mean so much to me, but I have no idea how to show it.
I'm scared.
Terrified for that matter.
I don't want to get hurt, but I don't want to lose you.
You make me happy, but I can't show you.
You make me feel again, but I won't tell you.
Because of you, I genuinely smile, but I won't let you see.
I just want to crawl under my covers and pretend I don't exist.
I don't want to fall for you.



                               B.S.