I build my walls but you break them down
I put my hands up but you bring them down 
I push you away but you keep running back
Why? You don't deserve me, I'm a mess, i confess, I can't let you see this
It's not who I really am, you deserve better

Life is a tune, you want to hear a melody
Hit the right notes and you can get a beat going
Something that sounds all right
And you don't want to stop
But then you hit the wrong note
The melody doesn't sound so good
The more wrong notes you hit
The more you don't want to hear it

Does it always end like this?
We meet, we talk, we flirt, we date, and then break-up.  
It's more of like a **** up
Times 20, and you can't fix it up
I was young, but you seemed to be fun
Nice, gentle, I couldn't see your true intentions
But each appraoch was a new hello invention
You never had the guts to make a confetion
I thought it was love
Because you said it back
Grabbing my hand
Telling me I'm beautiful
I was on cloud 9
Until one night, 1 fight fight turned into 5
Him: what's  wrong?!? You act like I hurt you?
Me: I'm not ready, I can't 

Grabbing my wrist and pulling me forward was a bad idea, one forced kissed turned into 4
You closed and locked the door
Layed me on the floor
And couldn't help but go for four little words and a  question mark
"will you **** me?"

She sits outside
And cries her tears
Wondering when her
Angel will appear
And when it would 
If it could please 
Take away her sadness and misery
After hours and hours
Her angel had finally come
He said " oh my dearest 
Why are you trying to?" 
She said to her angel
"I am not beautiful,
They all call me dull and ugly" 
He said "don't you listen to them
They don't know beauty rests under mayhem
They all can't quite see 
What's under contsruction
That beauty rests under most present
Only after destruction

It's crazy how the world changed
We all look apon eachother in shame
Discrimination at it's best
We are all equal, none the less
I wish to walk on the streets with pride
But instead I hide
Finding the urge to do so is hard
Words, lies rumors surface and it's written everywhere on me
It's unfair
I want an angel to come down and grant me 3 wishes
I'd wish for patience, peace, and equality,
Maybe then, I can walk happy

Do I deserve to burn alive while everyone watched me
Did a angel come down and save me and tell me I deserve to live
I can cut so deep and penetrate the skin
I can commite suicide, and pull that trigger
I can make sure the rope is tigt enough
I would run in front of a bullet aiming for the head
I would be left for the dead 
I want to be put on the cross, have nails pinned to my hands and sacrifice my life for theirs.

Confusion consumes me
chains, knifes, and actions strangle me
I want to hide and disappear forever
my strength has weakened and I can't breathe
How can I overcome something so big
How can I forgive if I don't know if he is sorry
Tears flow down my face
I'm losing all hope and fate
I can't let him go
He means so much to me
But he is hurting me and I don't want hurt
I want to fall asleep and his warmth fills my heart
I want to hold him, but what will it teach?