i wait
expectantly
willing you
to look my way
you are the only one
i've noticed
across a room
full of uninteresting
people
your smile
poked me
i turned
and there you were
now i wait
eager
for that one glance
because when our eyes lock
i will try
and reel you in.

All my life I've been known as "Crazed",
My life is falling a part and I feel dazed.
I cover up my face with a smile as a mask,
To cover up my pain so I won't be asked.

I've been told to try and find some help,
But with none all I can do is cry and yelp.
Day by day I feel like I am fading,
Whether or not I should keep fighting-
I am still debating.*

❥

I was at peace might have been before I lived
who knows , I know for sure I caught a glimpse when my daughter
and then my son were born,
but my daughter left, and my son grew on
and since loves have come and gone
and I since  have wilted
like an old fashion real flower
plastics just get dusty
I know it has been so long