Loosen the noose,  I'm ready to live
Unlock these chains I once begged you for
Collapse the walls I've had you build
Release the animal, it's tired of hiding
I'm ready to run
Headlong into the shadows
Away from the other one
I'll devour all I've withheld from
My crumbling spirit has decayed
Replaced by something raw
A ripened, dripping rage
And blood I will draw

Ready to show this true nature of mine
The dominant monster
A shiver up every spine
A nightmare unfostered
Beneath my heel you'll find
The weakest imposters

A vision of blackest beauty
I am everlasting insanity
Every demand followed
Every heart hollowed
Ecstatically

I'll make you crawl
I'll pull you down
You'll heed my call
I'll watch you drown

Well beyond the depths
And through our cores
I'll go to hell
Unlock all doors
Gather an army
Of oaths unsworn
My will unleashed
A chaotic force

Unfamiliar
My body has forgotten to breathe again
Disoriented
I can't see perspectives in the same way
My Painkiller
Why didn't you take control as I descended
Unprecedented
Into an unprotected state
No one had comprehended
This depressive rage
Love suspended
An open cage
Unintended
I escaped

I will find the rainbows stem
And tear open the flower
Gather up the petals, then
Bring back the showers

The valley greys over as the sun melts behind the clouds
Floating birds ride waves of warm currents and now
I am here in paradise
Making shapes in the sky with my eyes
There is a fawn in the trees
Eyes the colour of honey with a heart just as sweet
Her mother watches warily
As the baby doe saunters over to me, bouncing clumsily
My breath is caught, tangled in the beauty of these
Rare moments
Creating timeless memories

An apathetic indifference can't stop me
From catching every move you make
Crestfallen by a dissatisfied need
When will this become too much to take
Barely distracted and always searching
For a way out of this synthetic reality
Guilty of doing the exact same thing
I try to drown particular memories out
Together we're forging a way to be happy
Rebuilding boundaries on shifting ground
Without destroying absolutely everything
As we hide from these secrets we found

Fifty thousand miles of memories wouldn't Erase this feeling from eternity
I tried my best to deny it but couldn't
  Everytime my heart skips a beat
I'm so tired of staying away so I'll be
Escaping this sea of false beliefs

It's impossibly you
This icy embrace that's reviving me
Reminding broken lungs how to breathe
I am remembering how to be free
And there's simply no turning back now  
Into the same monster I was before
I'm stopping my heart from slowing down
This old imposter cannot continue
Or control me anymore

Sought after by creative liberty
Run over by her own insecurities
But at least now she's dreaming
Reaching for the reasons to keep on being
Lost in moments she never imagined seeing
Her stitched up heart is beating
In time to the rhymes that fall from her mind
She finds meaning in small things
Wanders through life and sings
Quietly to the songs that spread her wings
She's ready for flight but must cut all strings
The future beckons and the now is present
She is something from nothing
A beautiful accident.

Heal this crushing guilt, I am so ashamed
It's all I can do to hold my heart in place
Blood has spilled, I'm the only one to blame
And I am alone in my own cold embrace
Withering like the fighting winter rose
I am barely breathing, raw and exposed
But this soul has been yearning for growth
And I'm not strong enough to fight it  

Somebody please revive me
Pull me from this apathetic sleep
When the moon is full and bright
Don't let me escape
Lost dreams can't keep me alive
Don't let me fade
When you can make out every last star
Don't let me hide
I'll run, stumble out, throw up my arms
Screaming at the sky
Show me a new way to live
Look upon my shining scars
And teach me to forgive

Sienna water falling down mountain peaks of gold
The crescent moon and the sun I am told
Have moments in the sky where they like to scold
The stars for being so far away and so old

When the unicorn meets a mind that is logical
The trees whisper in their ears until their eyes become mystical
These legends will expand by being whimsical
Translated into words not fit for the analytical
I can't express just how much I love the mythical

Through forests painted in endless emerald shades
I run swiftly in barefeet as the grass cascades
Down into a rolling meadow where there is an everglade
I stop and stare, completely amazed how this resonates
This is where I was meant to be, this is how I was made

I won't get discouraged
Travelling this far why would I?
I won't listen to the urges
That push me away from taking flight

Long walks just to join the sunrise
Headphones are narrating my mind
The morning birds are serenading all the happy, waving passerbys
In our own way we're all taking flight
Preparing for spring to ignite
Coffee, tea, and warm, sleepy smiles
Ready to escape into a clear blue sky
And lie on the only beach for miles
We're counting on the days flying by
Waiting for another small town summer

Eyes the color of tiger stones
Whisper to me your song of old
Soft scales, impactful blows
So beautiful
Remind me of your powerful soul
A rising orange sun-glow
Reflects the light just so
I can see the life lines of your skin
Encouraging me to go within
The infinite being that is
Accepting the power I miss
Now, I lift my Self higher
Connect with fire
I align with a desire
To take the ego from its towering spire
And begin to rewire
The thoughts that conspire
To cause me to tire
Before I can muster
The energy to uncover
What I thought I had lost, however
Now I know
Nothing is ever lost forever
I am never alone.

My spirit needs to breathe
I am drowning in fatigue
Breathing without moving
Floating in unease
I hear hope is blooming
Somewhere inside these
Patience bearing ocean flowers
I am too high up to reach
This need awakens me
To will my lungs to breathe
I tried to hide from destiny
By staying just beneath
Shimmering surface dreams
All colours of the sea

Free this butterfly inside
Let me feel the emotions I can't describe
A million times I've tried
To show you how the world comes alive
That the light in your eyes
Is the same reflecting in mine
I could never hold the sunshine
As tight as I'd like
But I can get lost in its light
Watch my love fly
As I become blinded by
This sweet summer high

You're the darkness found inside mysteries
The questioning force behind every good deed
The forbidden knowledge we all subconsciously seek
The desires, the cravings, a raw ecstacy

You're the demon whispering possibilities
The master of revealing all insecurities
The influence that allows my denied reverie
The obsessions, the passions, a vicious need

You're the only one listening to my inner screams
Breathing in my new discoveries
The dreams, the nightmares, the secrecy
The only one accepting of every last broken, jagged black piece
The chaos, the seduction, the temptuous belief
In the reflection I see my own monster within
It is a creature I've decided to keep

Integrating your vicious presence
I've nowhere left to hide anymore
So now I look up at you, breathless
Giving in, until my eyes find yours
I whisper, yes, I'll take your test
And it's through you I will explore
You are my strongest weakness
A skeleton key to a treasured door
And with a power I will not ignore
I'll do my bidding without remorse
Watch me take down this delusion by force
My will to live, our energy source

I am
As silent as the trees
She is
Caught beneath a sunbeam
Behind her I am not, but hidden
Among the leaves, I watch and listen
I want to clear the distance
Play predator versus prey
But by her beauty, I am stricken
Frozen in place
And wishing I didn't
Have to be so strange
If only the sun had never shown her face
And made me crave more then a taste
My heart begins to race
And I know that as she wanders away
The decision has been made
So this time she is saved
And I leave as I came
In hungry, miserable silence
Her fate rewritten by my defiance
The wild wolf for now, is tamed.

Do you believe in anything now?
Wander around blinded by pain
Your inner storm is so loud
I can barely stand in your rain

Can you recall your own smile?
Before the screaming began
I show you a mirror to your soul while
You kick mine again

But I won't move
No, I'd never, ever leave you
My wings will hold onto
All that you've been through

Travelling through tragedy
I am the walled heart warrior
An Angel of Spirituality
Gods message carrier
And then, you look up at me
Welcome to your barrier

Her body is stretched
Ruffles of hair halo her head
Eyes wide open and red
An insomniacs' bed
Is always wrinkle free
No dream-crumpled sheets
Or blissful sleeping in, she's
Like a restless winter breeze

She sifts through her thoughts silently
As they push through wildly
Reliving memories that are violently
Relentless, making it entirely
Impossible to sleep here
And more importantly
Said a single tear,
"Impossible to dream."
Her secret fear

It's undeniable, this could only be magic
All rainbows converge to grab at it
Withering souls can grow here
Dance until there is no fear
Enter in the out of control
Tightly embrace the bass, just hold
As it melts away the cold
They all reach up, down and around
To feel what is left now...
It could only be music
Only pure magic and sound.

I have rejected the government
And money? An empty sentiment
This opponent rolls in life damning enjoyment
While they create a component
To control our emotions

I cannot be in the moment
When screams echo, there is no atonement
The enemy is the only bad omen
They make you feel frozen
"Good deeds" become suspicious torment

Breathe deep before the coming wave
Let your mind calm its ways
From me, they will not be saved
I will find a way to make them fade
Will it be today we fight for change?

This gaze is of an intensity you've yet to know
While the ground merely shudders beneath your feet
Mine has uplifted itself, and the destruction is full blown
You can't help but be too easily distracted, I know
The vultures keep your heart and soul at bay
It's not all one person's fault but I can't look away
Or wipe these tears from my face
This blame I feel is completely misplaced
I know
But
Your toys are shining while mine are drowning
Your shoes are new while mine are missing
Your homes are warm while mine are crumbling
And nothing compares to the hunger I am feeling

Our gardens of eden have been bulldozed away
Traditions turned into shame
My people only ever asked for a simple understanding
That in these parts we are naturally a little different
But you want to thrash your way through
And if we do not move
You throw us away with force
So you can travel a little faster
Build a little bigger
Consume more
Tie off any connections to source
And create more invisible lines in the sand
We know now
This is a level of pain you will never understand
Unless you experience it first hand

So expect an uproar
Life is a struggle
So if we have to struggle even more
We will do it in your face
So you cannot ignore this place
You took for granted before the climate change
We know now, your ignorance is unrelenting
And dangerous
So our friends on your side have become anonymous
Know that what we all go through becomes synonymous
With all the frustrations you're experiencing
The balance in life cannot be corrected by material things
You cannot separate yourself from us, we are the same being
Wake up and start truly believing
That it's not just me losing everything
It's you
Because these devoured parts of the forest I once ran through
Would have loved you too

His diamond heart melts in her flames
Set ablaze by her malicious gaze
She's a golden hurricane
Catching dreams in her haze
Driving the party thoroughly insane
When she dances the crowd is tamed
And there's no one but her to blame
She's dressed to ****, a walking fantasy
We could lead the show like this, she said
Let me be your queen and I'll lift you so high
You'll never fall down, only fly
With eyes the colour of autumn nights
Sweet forests, black lavender shadows
Dark turquoise skies and other words to live by
Her tattooed speech was poetry against his skin
So he followed her in
And his face was candy to her eyes

Unsolicited entry into my memory
Fogs my abilities to create imagery
So I am left with invisible feelings
To reciprocate my infinite energy
Faith, Love and Understanding is readily
Available to you if you are listening
Trying to explain excitement indefinitely
Is indeterminably an impossibility
So close your eyes, and feel the synergy
Between pure heart and this reality of impurity
Hold tightly to cure the anomaly
That has grown outside the soul defensively
Breathing deep is the first of many keys
To let you inside your own intricacies

Smile
Smile without the pain, trust me
Try it
Try it and write me a story, please
I'm drowning in adrenal fatigue
And my own bleeding empathy
From reading such sad poetry
But I chose to stay
And relate to your pain
Because I love your inner strength
When it shines through
Every word you choose
Just know
I notice you
I recognize the struggle of life
And when it's being a *****
I write a poem
About how to cope with it

Smile
Smile without the frown, trust me
Try it
Try it and tell me how it feels to see
Something caught inbetween
A bittersweet memory
And a dream

I am a river dreamer
Sitting on a bed of green streamers
Watching your life pass by like theatre
I wonder often how a mind reader
Fits into a world of mindless eagers
Who rip apart my worlds' bird feeders
To fill their minds with empty pleaders
And ignore the white washed cedars
I choose not to be the type of leader
Who ignores the helpless bleeders
And walks away from themselves
For meters

I am a mythic
Naturally scientific
Representing heiroglyphic
Designs that are intimate

I am inquisitive
Sporadic and innocent
Completely nonspecific
An ancient initiate

I am a linguistic
Student of verbal physics
And a little bit cryptic
With love for the mystic
Moments that are rhythmic
I am
A rustic, heretic poetic misfit

Submitting to invasive tendencies
I climb over mountain peaks with visceral fragility
I wait to jump, exempting this desire to feel freedom, to experience pleasure painfully
Struck down, I laugh in the screaming face that spits back at me
I look away as any place offering safety flees
I am one shattered shell withholding dangerous needs
A seed waiting to expand explosively
Corrupted by generous moments of greed
Watered by each and every one of these
Hellish fantasies that catapults completely
Any common sense of distracting decency
From getting in the way of succumbing to reality
I'm allowing these taboo emotions to openly bleed
Frozen in place I watch them slide over me
My body is freezing beneath this showering volcanic release
I can't control it, I don't know why this is unfolding
But I'm willing to see where this is going
The wind is picking up around my knees
And there is this knowing
That another dimension has found me
And is slowly consuming
A tsunami of need

I see you

My skin is on fire
Our inferno will rise
Everlasting desire
Destined to wire
Themselves through the sky
My echoes, your cries

Then I hear you

And your eyes find mine
Your promises unspoken
Still echo in my mind
That no matter the space
No matter the climb
Nothing can break us
If we're together, we're fine
The pain will subside
Scars heal with time
I promised I'd find you
So please do not hide

I have love

An indestructible bind
Passionate by design
Destiny's light
Our realities combine
We dance into the night
No longer wishing
For love to arrive

Grey eyes powdered with snow
Lashes so dark your face glows
Wandering so often no one knows
Where to find the power you hold
Animalistic tendencies show
That you are no human based clone
I tried to find a way to have you, to own
But now I know
There is no cage that could hold you
No defenses strong enough for your blows
Your words
Or your soul

Consciousness upraising music is soul baiting
I love how the beat can break me apart
And the vocals become like glue, so invigorating
That I can't feel this bass without a change of heart

Even when times are hard I find myself waiting
To get back to this sacred place I am making
Where everything everywhere finally stops pacing
Within myself, through sensitive ears I am changing
Only when the bass is heavy do my worries start fading
And everything inside that matters begins changing
Cyclical thoughts finally start rearranging
In my imagination it's amazing
I am dancing like the wind until these inner demons stop raging

I wade in
Sun lit streams
He fades in
Moon lit dreams
I wish for
Only everything
He'll miss me more
Then anything

Moments, so tranquil
Filled with peace
Be present, up until
Me becomes We
We walk farther
See the end is near
It's never been harder
To hold back these tears
Death is only the unraveller
There is nothing to fear
So we leave Earth together
Far away from here

Whatever mystery we soar on through
I will always believe in this one truth
That no matter what state I fall back into
I will always make my way back to you

Terrified, I had allowed my love for you to come loose
Now I let this fog lift, revealing one bruise, two
Showing a path leading to the mountains I ran through
Deep canyons littered my skin, not unlike the scars I drew
In fear of encountering my reflection, so worn down into
Something unrecognizable, I was barely able to choose
Anything new, or a personality to use
But now I see that within that false review
I had forgotten no matter how far I chose to withdrew
Nothing could tear what is originally whole into two

We watched from a distance how our love grew
From the pain of a thousand cuts and emotional abuse
From two separate points of view
Feeling dissonantly, inexplicably used

And now, somehow, even in darkness you knew
That if I controlled the way I travelled reality
It would keep me from finding truth
So finally, I said will you still take me
Watch as I let this lie shatter in totality
A thousand precious pieces, I watched you undo
Everything I thought I was, unravelled so violently
I thought my mind I would forever lose
But instead I was revived by a single memory
A young child's first kiss,
Sweet and innocently true
A clue that undeniably, always and infinitely
Would bring me back to you

I am yours
Careening through the milky way
A flash of shadow against the sun
I am yours
Chaos compelling me through space
To tie off the unravelling I've done
I am yours
Through this life and beyond this plane
I'll find myself running to you again

Explosions embrace
I'm lost in this perfect place
Held in your arms, face to face
An oasis no other paradise could replace
Shattered remains of our loneliness
Fall apart and disintegrate

Inside our silent glances it's love unspoken
A shimmering, unbreakable promise opens
I'm yours
I'll reveal every one of my emotions
From inside my galaxy to this universe
Even when it hurts
You'll find a hand reaching for yours
I'll be the one finding you first
Our hands shake, both beautifully broken
Feeling found within the others devotion

My colors are underwater
Drowning in my passion
I run the paintbrush through
In chaotic fashion
Blending pure red with blue
To make violent, violet hues
That will caress my artistic spirit
And consume my whole being
All through the evening

Uninhibited soul star
Coming home at light speed
Unrestricted rainbows are
Dreaming for eternity

These cosmic imaginations
In meditation are indications
We are awakening
A prospect so amazing and invigorating
Everything is changing
Rearranging

A chance to grow consciously
And refresh our limitless memory
So we give ourselves the opportunity
To rediscover our truth in unity
Mutually

Inside our merkabas
Covered with insignias
We are made of the purest diamond bliss
Don't be afraid to calm the waves
While your ego tears and twists
Just remember this:
You are caught amidst
A powerless illusion, it's
Okay to feel confusion
As our thoughts become translucent
And we start to find solutions
That dissolve spiritual pollution

Enchant your heart with art
And ignite your right to evolution
I resolve to be a part
Of this Universal Revolution!

A ribbon from the cosmos falls silently
The sky envelopes its fluttering colour
A summer wind caresses an edge so gently
Rainbows emerge to welcome her
And as she lands
The grass sighs with sweetness

Morning clouds dipped in last night's late afternoon
Tumble on by promising summer warmth soon
The sky empty of sun is a silver blue hue
Wildflowers dance to a soft breezy tune
The air is a raspberry lilac perfume
Everything, everywhere is in bloom
The birds sing goodbye to the moon
I wonder how long it will be
Before I get to see you

Shrieking winds caress my inner hurricane, emotions haven't gone numb
Basking in five hundred degree weather, beneath a desert sun
I'm awake now, towards the moonrise I run
Every piece of me thrums, my heart drums
Across a frozen meadow, wither wildflowers in snow,
I am caught by shimmering eyes of gold
Two hearts beat
It's a lie, you're not alone
I've found us, and for now a home
So much to know
Soft hills of grass, warm with summer
Picking flowers, eating out of orchards
I fondly remember
Catching butterflies by the light of embers
Flickering fireflies in late november
Wandering through emerald fields of memories
Wishing for this moment to last forever, however temporary
Time for now is slow
While the sun sets low, we always know
We wander together
And never alone

Poetically vibrating
Intensely radiating
Broken letters synchronistically mating
I love the way I am matchmaking
It's scintillating
A river rush of vowels are grating
Against consonants that were waiting
Sentence structure upraising
And then
I am only making
An attempt at escaping
This world
That is wasting

Catch the falling rain like a child in your arms
I can't hold you tight enough tonight
Follow stars, their love will keep you from harm
Don't let go of me until it feels right
I'll capture your heart, then free it
I'm beginning to understand that
Faith is hope and love is infinite
And until rolling hills roll flat
I'll be here waiting in the meadow
We made our very own
For now, I'm letting go
Until you return home

Haunting vocals chanting soliloquies
Render me paralyzed and unable to breathe
Their words reach for the sky like willow trees
Swaying in a breeze so sweet
With moments like these
I feel peace within me

I paint my clouds with hues of orange and pink
I love the mess it makes on my white clothes
Now covered in shifting shades of ink
My mother has spares because she knows
That nothing can stop me once I think
Of a place I wish I could go

You deserve peace
Give the teenage drama a rest
Your life is on repeat
A broken hearted mess
Those scars reveal your stress
But you know...
You are better then best
Your potential to impress
Isn't all you were made for
This society is only a guest
In the illusion we all breathe for
You are a cave of treasure to explore
Life is about finding the hidden quest
And yes, it's happened before
Be open minded, don't become heartless
No one but you can end this civil war
With yourself; you are NOT useless
Just restless and bored
Am I
Trying to convince you of more
Then what you can handle?
Because life is also a test
And it's not graded on your high school exam scores

Wake Up
There is more to this then you want to know
Can I show you the stars
How the make-up you forgot is so far
The most beautiful thing you are

Or will you never let go
And in a crowd always feel alone?

She couldn't breathe
Her soul was too drunk on poetry
To even speak
The right words were unavailable emotionally
But passionately
Steadily
With every single feathered letter
Staining these tea colored sheets
She'd remember,
And read intuitively
A sentence of treasured mystery
A single line was written and left behind
Anonymously
That could inspire her every time;
"You are made to create your own opportunities"
And just like that
Her mind was realigned
And her insecurities fell back asleep