As I pass by the window
And anticipate my reflection

I imagine that the woman I see
Is strong and brave and free

I dream of seeing a lover
Who is **** and wise and desired

I wish I could remember a girl
Who was wild and safe and wanted

But as my eyes meet the woman
staring back at me
I hurt my own feelings
Wishing that weren't me I see

if only you could ever know what you've done to me

ink stained my skin from where i wrote hate letters to myself

scars line my skin from where i tried to cut out everything i hated about myself

fat clings on my bones for dear life because i tried to starve it off

pain still flows along with my blood, traveling from my mind to my heart

if only it could leave with all the blood i tried to lose