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Arielle Aug 2018
I hate that I have this fear inside
Even though I try to hide
This fear will never leave my side
No matter how many times I've tried
I can't seem to shake it from my mind
You're like the ghost that is always near
That is constantly reminding me why I fear
It's still a work in process but I felt like I wanted to show it as I work on it ... March 4th 2018 is a day I will never ever forget .
Arielle Aug 2018
Right now anxious
Anxiety moves up & up
Paralyzes, like a vice all around
No reason, No rhyme
No trigger, No cause
Like a feather floating
Attaching to my sticky surface
Weighing me down
Turning me into a shadow of myself
Turning me into a ghost
Wishing it away
Praying for a healing
Dreaming of better days
Nightmare living - awake.
Arielle Aug 2018
The mind is a magician
it's tricky and it's quick
thoughts it slips in
out of order , not based on facts
feelings follow - large and controlling
rationale flees or hides

The person I am
shadowed in the reactions and actions taken
orchestrated and directed
by the master puppeteer - this magician

inner duality
illusions of autonomy versus reality
to cut the strings, rebel!
adhere to this
To The Plan

1• Question critically
2 • Do not react
feelings based on false perceptions (to be weeded) not an easy task, nor meant to be
inner and outer discipline to be applied
3 • Create pauses, and reflect
4 • Strengthen self LOVE
5 • Forgive - Fall - Do not judge - Do not stall - Practice - Practice - Practice
6 • Never stop learning, striving, keep growing.

Follow the plan
To be freed
To be led by .....
The true me (you)
Something I've written while in my depression ... may not make sense to some but does to me.
Arielle Aug 2018
You swore to me your love was true
every time you said "I Love you "
you toyed around with my heart 
as you left me in the dark 

lie after lie, they did not stop 
you always kept lying around the clock 
my tender heart you broke that day 
as you rip't it away in such a brutal way 

as I weep and start to cry 
you laugh at me with a smile 
happy to have hurt my soul 
as you acted oh so cold 

you felt not sorry about me 
you made me feel like history 
so my forgiveness I shall keep 
as I continue on to weep 

I shall not pardon you my friend 
even till the very end 
what you broke cant be replaced
as tears keep running down my face

— The End —