Anonymistress: Poems

take care.

Anonymistress Mar 2020

Do you ever wish the best for the ones that have done you wrong? Despite all the hurt they put you through, you want nothing more than for them to find the happiness they deserve. Even if it doesn't involve you.

The day it hits : let them go and find peace in it.

thank you for that.

Anonymistress Mar 2020

thank you for that.

You bring out the best in me. I find myself challenging all my own fears, head on. I admire your independence, it's contagious. You've shown me to be proud of the person I am. And to never stop working on the person I want to be.

What you taught me, a reminder to open my eyes and recognize what I'm capable of. But now you're gone. And I've learned to be my own inspiration.

the good & the bad.

Anonymistress May 2020

the good & the bad.

Every too often,
We never truly know what a person is capable of,
Until we witness it first hand.

That's the thing about second chances, they're never quite the same.

The man I deserved, but couldn't keep.

Anonymistress Dec 2019

The man I deserved, but couldn't keep.

I miss the way you would kiss my forehead at the end of a perfect moment. Or the way your face lit up when you spoke of the things you are passionate about. And trying to keep up with you pounding back beers, knowing I'd never win. And yet my favorite would have to be falling asleep on your chest that last weekend of the play offs. There was always something so comforting about your presence. And the more I got to know you, the more I learned to miss that feeling.
Thank you for being kind and gentle to me in ways I didnt know.

Some of the most magnificent people you meet, are lessons.
Thankful for the opportunity to feel such affection.

The Naked Body

Anonymistress Apr 2016

The Naked Body

She won't let you see.
Why?

They're all one in the same.
Yours and hers,
Hearts both on the table.
Only hers is halfway off the edge.
So close, but you just can't touch.

She won't let you see.
Why?

Intimate and passionate as one.
Yours and hers,
Bodies both skin to skin.
Only her bra will never come off.
So close but you just can't touch.

Her body,
Will never be naked.
Physically and Emotionally.

Why?
She won't let you in.

For the girls that won't let their guard down, you'll hear this well..

#love #passion #scared #*** #hearts #women #boundaries #guards

the shit you don't say out loud

Anonymistress Dec 2019

the **** you don't say out loud

It's all fun and games

until you find yourself
facing the barrel of a gun

with a man saying
"I love you," while
he's holding the grip.

Get it off my chest.

the thought of you.

Anonymistress Mar 2020

the thought of you.

I'd rather not know.
I'd rather shut you out.

Not because I dont care,
but because the thought of you living your best life, happy, is enough.

Enough to spare myself the heartache of watching you walk away one more time.

I can't let you in, not anymore.

the three essentials.

Anonymistress Mar 2020

the three essentials.

"...all you need in life is a roof over your head, milk in the fridge, and someone to love."

I can never remember where I heard this from, but it's been years and it's still some of the best advice I've ever come across. Life is simple. "Live and let love."

the truth.

Anonymistress Feb 2020

the truth.

Words make us vulnerable,
because nothing exists until it is said outloud.

this version of "us."

Anonymistress Apr 2020

this version of "us."

I like this version of us,
where we let our guards down.

It's not easy to be vulnerable, but it could be worth it.

those eyes.

Anonymistress Apr 2020

those eyes.

There is a fine line
between shutting people out
and shutting yourself down.

You looked sad today, but you wont let me help.

too good to be true.

Anonymistress Jan 2020

too good to be true.

And just like that,
you came back.

As much as I wanted this,
what if you leave again?

Untitled

Anonymistress Feb 2015

Untitled

I'll forever carry that sense of hope in any situation that everything will all work out.
But I'm always prepared for the fallout.
I just don't known which is more disappointing.

Unwell.

Anonymistress Dec 2019

Unwell.

Consecutively eating one meal a day,
despite the knowledge of the physical attributes that come with doing so.
The endless weekend black outs and bathroom floor surrenders.
The sleepless nights lurking for company.
The overwhelming guilt in attempts to start over again.
The three hour long anxiety attacks that cease to subside.
You realize you haven't taken care of yourself;
that numb became such an acceptable state of being.

Found this old gem from a darker time.
Revisiting these words.

#numb #unwell #selfcare #anxiety

vulnerabilities.

Anonymistress May 2020

vulnerabilities.

I think the truth is,
we are all a little fraction of broken
in one way or another.
And there might be something significantly beautiful
in that unspoken darkness.

weight off my shoulders.

Anonymistress Dec 2019

weight off my shoulders.

I could hide my demons well.
Bring my secrets to the grave.
Or I could spill all my truths,
Set those ******* free.

Anonymously of course.

Some days I share thought out poetry.
Other days I just get that **** right off my chest.

What's Your's

Anonymistress Mar 2015

What's Your's

You can give someone your heart and soul.
But never give them the power to take away who you are.

who hurt you.

Anonymistress Apr 2020

who hurt you.

I share my words
like a coward.

I write of these men,
but I'll never speak their names.

you cant heal me.

Anonymistress May 2020

you cant heal me.

I hate that you're my safe place
Because I can't always trust
That you'll be there
When I need you.

I hate that the only arms
That hold me
Without fear or hesitation
Belong to you.

How am I supposed to accept a love
When I hate the person in the mirror.

I am broken
And you won't want that.

you don't know unless you know.

Anonymistress Mar 2020

you don't know unless you know.

That "once in a lifetime" connection goes unmatched.

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