AllAtOnce

AllAtOnce Dec 2015

Need

He wants my brain so he takes what he needs
But he needs everything I know and everything I feel
She needs my affection-needs to know I care
Know that her best friend is still in there somewhere
Someone else needs all of my heart
I'm supposed to feel like she feels, but it's all getting so hard
They need all of my muscle and my every move
Because there's always something else I have to do
Everyone needs every part of me except for my soul
But even that isn't free
There's no one out there who wants it for their own
So it's just my soul and I, sleeping all alone

AllAtOnce Nov 2015

You're such a waste of time

You are just a blond hair blue eyed
Major waste of time
But I can't help but stare
What is left for me there?

I don't know what I'm looking for anymore
I'm getting so bored
There's a waste of time in a beanie and a button down
Just around the corner babe
I remember that you said my name
And everything is falling apart right now

There's no purpose left
There's nothing left for me here
Just blond hair blue eyes
You're such a waste of time
I swear I'm losing my mind
And your girlfriend knows I'm insane

In the dark
In the deep November dark
The only thing left
Is a waste of time
Dressed to the nines

So I'll put on my best smile
Get my beauty sleep
I don't want to feel
Because it's all for a waste of time
Waiting for something real
To come along

AllAtOnce Nov 2015

Time

I remember when I thought it wouldn't get better
But here I am
Three years later

AllAtOnce Nov 2015

And....scene!

The lights are brighter than the ones in your eyes
Your cheeks caked with blush
I wonder what you're thinking when you're up there
I wonder if you're performing for her
Scene after scene
Line after line
I just want to break down and cry
Because when you look out into the crowd
With that stupid smile on your face
You skip right on past me
I never mattered anyway
You can tap my shoulder all you want
And I'll tell you that you did great
But nothing is sincere
Our entire lives are a play
So tomorrow when you push your hair back
And straighten your tie
I'll be walking out the back door
Forgive me if I don't say goodbye

AllAtOnce Nov 2015

What's the point?

Trying to love you is like trying to live infinitely
Cause even roSes have thorns that make you bleed
The stArs have faults
And angels fall
What's the point in loving you at all?
Those freckles are stars in celestial connect the dots
How can one person alone beat all the odds
There's nothing left for the rest of us
No one ever asked you to be perfect
No way that happened by chance
TiMe to take a step back
Take a bow
Snap out of the trance
You cannot be as great as they make you seem
I'm waiting for you to come apart at the seams.

#st

AllAtOnce Nov 2015

broken boy love song

hush my dear
don't you cry
take a deep breath
everything will be alright
i'd break my heart for what breaks yours
i'd build a wall up around it
with tall, stone walls and twice locked doors

let me wrap my arms around you
come close-closer-close
push the hair out of your eyes
please, honey, please don't cry
have a little faith
is that what you want me to say?

i know that you're broken and i know that you're scarred
but i think you can be whole again
i think that you're strong
and when everything comes tumbling down
just replay this broken boy love song
when you feel broken and when you feel scarred
look in the mirror and tell yourself that you're strong
so when everything you love is still at home
listen to the broken boy love song

i hear that you're alone
i hear you're going insane
music turned all the way up
hoping someone is calling your name
but you know i'd break my heart for what broke yours
i'd build a wall up around it
with tall, stone walls and twice locked doors

i know that you're broken and i know that you're scarred
but i think you can be whole again
i think that you're strong
and when everything comes tumbling down
just replay this broken boy love song
when you feel broken and when you feel scarred
look in the mirror and tell yourself that you're strong
so when everything you love is still at home
listen to the broken boy love song

break my heart for what breaks yours
i don't expect bright eyes or open doors
breaking my heart for what broke yours
maybe we both feel alone in the world
break my heart for what breaks yours
stone walls and twice locked doors

Oct 2015

ㅡjatm

Untitled

We were strangers
Who came with words,
We have a flawless storyline
And wrote our own lies.

Those ravishing words
That turned into
An ocean of aesthetic lies,
Then I drowned and can't swim.

We're now inarticulate
And we both share
The same ghost
Contradicting everything special
That we lost in a blink.

I was the moon and stars
Who swallowed his darkness,
He was the setting sun
Who have put me down,
I guess I was in love with an idea.
(J.a.t.m)

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