So tired of the pain
you left without a word.
Years since have past
holding on is absurd.

So tired of the sadness
from the hole left in my heart.
No parent left to hold me
since you tore us apart.

So tired of the tears
they just don't seem to come.
If I could cry it out
maybe the hurt would be done.

So tired of the loneliness
you've left inside my soul.
This heartache really seems
to be getting old.

The day you left
I lost myself
took a part of me
placed it on a shelf

The day you left
I lost who I am
realize now that
death is a scam

The day you left
I became alone
wish for one more time
to hear you on the phone

The day you left
the world was empty
I miss you so much
even though you're free

Aching
from memories.
Nightmares
and silent pleas.

Itching
for another slice.
Addiction
her only vise.

Hurting
from words unspoke.
Remember
every stroke.

Dying
from wounds inside.
Places
nowhere to hide.

Watch the blade as it glides across
freshly cleaned skin begging to give in.
Droplets form until heavily they roll
down her ankle into a crimson pool.

Emotions release with every slice,
giving way to what's tried and true.
Weight lifted off as if now she can breathe,
getting rid of all her enemies.

But the relief doesn't last and
the guilt comes rushing in.
It keeps telling her that escape
is just a shameful sin.

Now she's stuck in her emotions
once again begging to give in because,
being numb and running away
are the only things she has left to hold.

Nightmares chase me.
Make me feel crazy.
Someone save me
from this memory.

You take hold of me.
No way left to flee.
I just want to see
how to become an escapee.

Wake up shaky.
Hips feel achy.
I'm so angry,
why can't you save me?

When I’m alone
I get in my head
When I end up there
I wish I were dead

When I’m alone
I get so scared
Feel as if
nobody ever cared

When I’m alone
it gets dangerous
Start to feel like
life’s not worth the fuss

When I’m alone
I’m my enemy
When really I need
to be a friend to me