Hard to swallow,
Left alone to wallow,
A shallow soul, a lonely one…
Lost within the confines of her walls.

I can't fulfil this hole at my centre.
This hole doesn't heal nor grow
This hole doesn't shrink nor explode
It just sits inside my heart which beats slow-
due to the multitude of beatings
I have no control.
I am nothing…
but a slow heart, with a hole in it

You screamed.
Words of disgust pieced my flesh.
What a mess. however,
Nothing was what it seemed.

I remember good times,
When laughter was dominate          
No one nominate leader.
Just enjoying each others company.
It was simple.

Until glasses shattered.
Feelings battered,
As my tears admitted the truth.
Your words showcasing yours.
There was nothing left to say.
The damage had been done.
You screamed once.
And change our future,
Too blunt to realise the impact of your words.
Leaving us on undetermined terms.

7#

Breathless, unable to grasp humanity.
Drowning in others mistakes.
Losing grip on my sanity,
Caused by these profanities.

Exclaimed by others in power.
Standing over me in their towers,
Just to shower themselves with greed
As I’m left to bleed and weep in pain
All for their gain.

Its all just a ******* game…
My life, my heart all up for grabs.
All for a life in a lab?

Might as well just stab me.
I will endure less suffering.
Than living in a cage,
With a stamp of my age
And a page on the labels placed upon me,
By those who think they own me.

Breathless, unable to grasp what happened to humanity…
As I lose the rest of my sanity…
-AVII

I’m stuck in reverse.
No where to go,
Just lost and alone.

Forget those memories that bury deep into my brain.
Forget the pain and the shame,
Forget me and my name,
Forget the salty tears that I shed,
Through the lonely long hours of dusk and dawn.

Eye blood shot and puffy,
Head hot and stuffy,
Body aching and hair scruffy,
I’m out of control.
Stuck loving you.

I’m just blue.
Stuck in reverse.
No where to go,
Unsure left in the unknown.

Forget those feeling that bury deep into my chest,
Forget ‘love’ and all the rest,
Forget the times I held you close, when no-one else would.
Forget waiting for a reply, or just a sign
That you are alive.
That your all right.

Don’t worry I’m ‘fine’…
I swear, I know you don’t care,
but don’t worry I’ll ‘bear’ it…
Because I love you.
-AVII