Have you ever noticed that, if you close your eyes, a laugh can sound like someone crying?

I’m not laughing.
Open your eyes.

My reality is different
I live in a world
Where people cheer for my demise
Where people find entertainment
From the moment I stop breathing
It's a messed up one
But I'm stuck here

I hate myself
This unchanging self
The questions of why
Sticks to my mind

She was my light
The hope in my darkness
But like the others
This light faded

My heart was broken
But I'm used to it
From shards and pieces
Now Ash and dust

I'm cursed to fall
Fall alone
Never having someone
Right by my side

As I slit my wrist
I'm filled with bliss
My broken world
Falls into this void

Your love was my medicine
It was my drug
I was addicted to it
When I feel it
I feel alive
But in the end
You gave me a placebo
I thought it was real
But it only felt like it