I sit and watch it from my rooftop

In another universe, we've already been in love with each other for a very long time. In another universe, you've always been my best friend.

The sky is swollen, there is no place to hide

I miss the times
Of going to sleep
With someone in mind
To think about

Maybe one day
We'll laugh
At the distance

He should feel what she actually feels.

To be ignored,
to assume things cos he gives motives,
to not explain things that he'd done,
and to be hurt like hell.

He'll chase her again
and she will definitely give him a hard time.

*He should feel what it feels to be hurt.

When being alone doesn't help
And surrounding yourself with people doesn't help
Have you ever felt this helpless?

I didn't comb my hair today
I've still the sour scent of last nights sweat
On my stomach, on my chest

There is a tear in my pillowcase
And I do not know
How to sew

I'm not sad yet, but I can feel myself getting there
I can't remember the last time I didn't feel nervous, anxious
These past years hiding behind the pursuit of a Bachelor's degree
English major I respond when they ask
These past years waiting for something, someone
That never seems to come

I think it's best I haven't met you yet
Yet, that hopeful word
That senseless word
That breaks me apart, holds me together
To the little sense I have left

I am alone
Surrounded by everyone
My heart is blue
And I am wearing
Mustard yellow