I love you while im awake while I love another while asleep...

I live in a world full of hate and lies

All of my dreams came true when you said yes.

If you only had a moment to live
What would you do

Would you you stand in fear
Would you feel sorry for yourself
Would you ponder on life

If you only had one moment to live
What would you do

I try to write a poem
A poem of love and happiness
While being surrounded by
Depression and loneliness
Not from the people around me
But the person inside of me

The cold, broken, heart broken fool
The fool whom rateated love
The fool whom spreaded warmth
The fool whom gave out open arms

I try to write this poem
A poem of the man behind the mask Im surrounded by
Depression and loneliness
No one around me to blame
Because of the person inside of me

When I first met you
I thought you were cute...
Then we started to talk,
And I started to like you...
Then we started hanging out
And I started loving you...
Now I know you & your
Lieing, cheating personality...
And now, I hate you!
Funny how time changes things.

We walk down a hall with many doors.
Looking at every number impatiently.
We open the last door on the right.
The door slamming behind us as we slide in

I look into her eyes as she pulls me closer to her.
I see the hunger growing.
Longing to be pleased.
It has been to long since she had felt that pleasure.

I light things off with a gentle kiss on her lips.
Slowly moving to her neck.
Gently kissing it.
She starts to moan from the feeling it's giving her.

Then she gives in.
Helping me undress,
and I do the same.

I pick her up and throw her on the bed.
I move on top of her looking deep in her eyes.
Slowly impriving between her thighs.

I see her eyes close tightly at first movement.
She lets out a load moan.
Asking me not to stop as i check on her.
I move faster, and harder as she gets use to the feeling.

I can feel her nails scratching while driving into my back.
The feeling is amazing as she leans up and kisses me on my neck.
I slow down as she continues.
losing myself with every kiss.
She stops, i lose control as i drive further into her.

I'm no longer taking things easy.
I can tell she is enjoying it with every moan she lets out.
Each moan is louder than the previous.
Our bodies grinding into each other.
leaving no room in between us.

I soon stop.
i look into her eyes,
i have pleased that hunger that had been dwelling for so long.
She looks up at me saying " that was heaven on earth"!

We look at the clock. 3:10
I pull her close to me, as i cover us up with the blanket.
She lays her head on my chest.
My heart is racing, as i whisper in her ear " I Love You".
As we slowly fall asleep in one another arms.

My hearts just too soft so I'm going Through it in a cage and lock it up never to come back out

I look you in the eyes, losing my mind...

I can feel darkness
carving its name into my skin

Reaching for my heart
To take away my love

No protective barrier
So easily penetrated

So close now
I can feel despair

Please save me
I'm almost gone

Don't stand there
Save me...

I am now lost
To far gone

You stood there
Watched me suffer

Now feel the pain
That I once felt

I will stand here
As you scream my name

Never moving
I will watch your pain

For internity we will be together
Isn't that what we always wanted

Forever you will feel this pain
Forever you will scream my name

Forever we will share this pain
Forever we will scream each others name

You say you have no love
But I can feel it radiating like angels from above.
You say you have no heart
But what is that? Deep below.
Brighter than Heaven and White as snow

I can see how majestic you are.
How you are like no one else.
With a big heart filled with love.
Just scared to show for what you already know.
How the world is filled with evil. Yet you have over looked the good. Just pass me the knife, and Whiskey.
Take my hand and come with me.
I'll show you the beauty of this world hidden below. Just like something we both know needs to be shown.

I'm no long going to have not me as one of my poemS. Because it's not me. Pretty weird right, but it's true. I'm the luckiest man in the world. I have the most amazing girlfriend I'm the world. Along with a really amazing family. I just wish I saw that then. But, I see it now, and I'm not giving anything up. Because, the best me is the me now.
Oh, and bou you we're right I should of came to you. because, you ARE NOT my almost lover. YOU ARE MY ONE, AND ONLY LOVER. MY ONE TRUE LOVE. SO PLEASE WEAR THAT RING I PUT ON YOUR LEFT HAND. ON THE ONLY FINGER WITH A VAIN THAT LEADS TO YOUR HEART. BECAUSE, IT MEANS THAT NOT TODAY BUT SOME DAY I WANT TO MAKE YOU MINE. BUT, AS FOR NOW IT'S MEANING I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IM NOT GOING TO LET YOU GO.

I'm in love with a girl.
She is not perfect.
She doesn't have the perfect hair.
She doesn't have the perfect teeth.
She is no way near perfect to most people.

Most people will look at her and point out all of her imperfections.
I look at her, and I point out her beauty.
Its not that I do not see she is not perfect by the worlds eyes.
It's because all of those imperfections are whats most beautiful to me.
With out all of her imperfections she wouldn't be her.

People look at what shows.
What i see is what glows deep below the surface.
Because that's where the most beauty shows.
Where no one can see.

Her imperfections are truly beautiful to me.
They each have a story behind them.
They each have different features.
No one can have the same imperfections as her.

I'm glade she has these imperfections.
Without them she would be perfect to most.
Just not to me.
Because the way she is now is perfection of the imperfection to me.
That's all I want her to be.

You are in my arms wishing they were his...

You inspire me to write
I really Do **** at it
But i try
Because you inspire me to write

I saw scars upon her arms
I cried when I saw her scars
I promised never to hurt her
I said new ones woundnt appear

Now there are new ones
Now I have hurt her
Now I cry as the number increases
Now I see only scars upon her arms

I sit here
Starring at a peace of paper
A peace of paper without a word

I sit here
Clueless of who I am
Clueless of who I want to be

I sit here
With distant memories
Memories of who we use to be

I sit here
All alone
No one next to me

I sit here
Not longing for my life
My life ending slowly

I sit here
Without the one I love
While my love, loves another

I sit here
My love racing for you
While your loves given up on me

I think back
I think of wonder memories
I think of us
I think of the past
I think of the present
I think of future

Maybe I think to much.....

No food
No sleep
Not even a drink
No one beside me
A broken heart
Scares appearing down my arms

No fun
No future
Not an ounce of your love
No smile

All good now gone
Now I no longer see you
Because of this picture we've drawn
Drownding us in sorrow

Here it comes
Slowly but fully
Trying to take the pain away
Its just not working
It's only a goodbye
But if its true
I will finally die
Before I even get one more chance
To kiss you one last time.....

I watch as you fall
Fall to your knees

You watch me as I rise
Rise to my feet

I watch you fall to the floor
Fall upon your side

You watch me rise towards the sky
Rise straight up

I watch you fall into the earth
Fall and die

You watch me rise up high
Rise high and fly

Does it make since that the one person we love the most can terrify us with Just one word
That one word can change our days
That one word can change our mind
How can one person do his to someone there not even around

Its because that one person means so much
We cant live without that person
It scares us to loose them because they mean so much
Because life without them would be hell on earth

Ive found my one person and she scars the living hell out of me
It seems like its almost daily that she does this
She can change my mood and day with just one word
I wouldn't want a single day on this world without her
All of this is because i truly love her

Let's let our emotions flow
And let them grow
Maybe then we will know
How to show
What no one has ever known

As I sit here listening to these lyrics
I can feel you in my heart
Like the blood flowing through my veins

As I sit here listening to these lyrics
I can see your beauty shining in front of me
Like the glorious rays from the sun

As I sit here listening to these lyrics
I can feel your lips upon mine
Sweeter than the most delectable chocolate in the world

As i sit here listening to these lyrics
I can smell you wonderful scent
Like the fragrance drifting from spring flowers

As I sit here listening to these lyrics
I can hear two hearts beating in perfect rythem
Like the soothing melody of angles singing

As I sit here listening to these lyrics
I dream of you and me being together
A journey of endless love lasting forever and alway

You want to see something majestic
I'll tell you where to find it
Look in the mirror
Its beautiful and majestic
For all eyes to see

My heart is beating
Beating loud
Just not clear

My heart is beating
A steady beat
Yet it hurts

My heart is beating
Pumping blood through my veins
Just not enough

My heart is beating
Beating for the one I love
It just can't show her
                .......
My heart is no longer beating
No longer making a sound
It has lost its rythem
Now it is standing still
Blood now lays down in my veins

My heart has been broken
Broken by the one it truly loves

My heart is now dead in every way
Killed by the one that it loved

I look in your eyes and see love but i never believe it when you tell me you love me....

I'm not perfect.
I can't be perfected.
I can't be perfect for you.
There's no way for me to be perfect.
I'm me so I know this.
There's not a bit of perfection in me.

To me you were everything.. I love you with all of my being. My soul reached out and touched yours but you couldn’t see that. That is okay...

It hurt so much when you left.. the days felt long and I wanted nothing but you.. while you decided you only wanted him.. I watched you fall for this guy. All while you pushed me further away. Breaking me and my heart in every kid of way.

Yet every day that follow I called your name and yelled how I loved you so very much. With everything in my being. Just to be told to leave and blamed for everything.

That is okay. Because after all the abuse and your betrayal I still love you. But I can’t be here with you. I will love you from a distance and we will grow apart and become strangers again and that is okay. You will be fine and I’ll find a way to make it through each day.

This is me saying goodbye.... I have nothing left for you. You have taken it all away.. now I’m left with nothing but a broken heart and a deep bleach hole in my chest that aches so very much.

I hope live a beautiful life full of joy and laughter. I pray you achieve every goal you have set. I hope you find love like no other. I wish you the best, for now this is goodbye like see you later. I love you...

This is scary
But I'm not freaking out
This is hard to face
But I'm facing it
This will take two
For what might come
If this happens
Let me be the best
Please allow everything be okay
Don't make me do it alone
I rather not have to do it
Just not yet
Allow me to get prepared
Just so it's best for it
Just know I'll be
Happy either way
I'm just not ready
At least not yet

I remember
Waking up knowing you were mine
Knowing our love was true

I remember
The smile on your face
With mine to follow

I remember
Every hug
With every kiss

I remember
Every late night call
With a loving text

Now its a memory
So I don't smile
With love in my heart

Now your a memory
You are long gone
And no where to be found

I once lived without your smile
Oh how sad it was

I once lived without you laugh
Oh how quiet it was

I once lived without your love
Oh how lonely it was

I once lived without you
Oh how i can never do that again

I look at you the way you look at the moon

She is my favorite part of the night,
         before the end of the day.

New beginnings start from bad endings.

Walls surround her on all four sides, no windows or doors only a ceiling and a floor. Blocking everyone from her view. She watches as many try to save her by banging and climbing. Trying to bypass the wall of many tears from this little girls fears. Not one can tell there really is no wall but only her fear pushing them away. That's why I'm here to save those tears and face your fears. The girl never realize but I saw right through her. Past all the bad to find her. To whisper to her in her ear I love you.

Blood shot eyes full of tears
Caused by only fear
Please disappear
There is no reason for you to be here

Tell me this what do I do when I miss you. What do I do when my lips crave for your lips. What do I do when Your so far away that my heart acks for you to be next to me. What do I do when I erg for you so much that I lose control. Just tell me what should I do.

I can't wait,
For that feeling.
The one you get,
When your married.
Married to your true love.
I can't wait,
For that feeling.
The one you get,
When you look
Into you newborn Babe's eyes.
I can't wait for,
For these feelings,
you want to give me.

Once upon a time
I loved you

Once upon a time
You loved me

Once upon a time
I fought for you

Once upon a time
You gave up on me

Once upon a time
I said stay

Once upon a time
You said goodbye

Once upon a time
I moved on

Once upon a time
You stayed

Once upon a time
I forgot your love

Once upon a time
You remembered mine

The time of today
Now I'm happy

The time of today
Now your sad

Those eyes
Always looking at me in that way
So sweet
So bitter

I can't look away from those eyes
They draw me closer
with only a glance

Those eyes are my weakness
Never have I seen eyes like yours
Small but so strong
Always right
Yet so wrong

Those eyes are my weakness
Those eyes have so much love
Those eyes I love

There's two of us
There's two

Ones Evil
Ones Good

Who we truly are
Depends on the side we choose

Love, is unexplained.
Never can it be described, yet it's there surrounding you and me.
Love, holds things together but can never be seen between you and me.
Love, can be heavy at times when we're together but it can't touched.
Love is the most common word, but how do we know how to use it when we can't do nothing to it.
How do we know if it's there if we can't see it.
Love, is confusing even to me, until I met you.
I can see love in your eyes.
I can feel it radiating from you like the suns heat on a hot summer day.
I can carry this love with out struggling because of you.
I can feel love holding us together.
I can see love.
I can feel love.
I can touch love.
I can carry love.
I have found love.
Because love is you.

Our relationship is like a diamond, beautiful and indestructible!

You tie me up to cut me down....

**** I can't think. I'm in love with you. I can't be with you. I see you suffering be hind a smile. I'm suffering behind a mask. What good is this **** if in the end we are both heart broken and will never truly love some one again. I have so many ******* regrets now that we said goodbye. All I want is you but you think I'm to good for you. The **** I am! I'm just a poor pease of **** that hides behind a mask. I smoke ***, I smoke ciggeretes, I ******* drink constantly. **** its not you who is bad for me. I'm just bad for myself. But I still don't want to say goodbye.

Look deep into my eyes
Is there anything to be seen
If so what do you see

Do you see a calm ocean
Or the raging sea
Am I sweet like honey
Or am I bitter like a tree

To you there's not much to see
This is because you are not me
You can not see what I see
Nor can I see what you see

This is because we are different
As far as our eyes can see

What would you say,
if I said I love you.
The way you've always wanted.
The way you've longed for.
The kind of love
That you see in movies.
The kind of love you've never had.
The kind of love you've always
Asked for.
What would you say,
If I said I love you like this.
Would you accept it,
Or would you throw it away.
I want to know,
Because I love you this way.