Pick ,pick, pick myself
Infiltrating inflammation infection  
Scratching at the surface
Obsession fills the void
Until reality hits once more.

Mustard coloured eyes
staring straight into my lies  
Masked with a cheap disguise it’s
Time to face the humiliation

Meet with judgment and disappointment
I forcefully push through the hours of my life …

BUT IM DONE PLAYING THIS GAME!
I’m setting free of this chain
Giving into my pain
And I don’t care what you say!
I’m no longer afraid -
This is the ONLY way

Because through my darkness I am enlightened

Befriending my shadows
I meet myself again

I break myself
Into tiny peices
On the floor
Left to the dust once more

I cut myself
Till blades are blunt
I feel pain no more

****** and raw
You can’t hurt me anymore